EVE 31 December 2010

Just a few more hours for year 2010, and a new year is coming, welcome 2011. As previous year, need to list out some highlight in this year, and see the goals I set last year got achieve or not sin… :P

First highlight is sure my convocation in August, and this indicates the end of my study life for about 20 years, and finally I graduate with bless from parents, sister, brother and friends. Need to thanks my parents again for this, and now I can dependent already, don’t worry ya.

The next highlight sure is my first job located in PJ, Western Digital as quality engineer. I went to KL for interview for 3 times, first time in WD for reliability engineer, then for mechanical design engineer in Plaza Glomac, PJ. Next only for quality engineer in WD, that is my current job. Also went for Penang for 2 interviews, one in Jelutong and one in Bayan Lepas, Vitrox. Is not easy for the path I walked, and decision I made, until now I in KL almost 6 months. Until now still got a lot people wonder why I don’t want to chose Penang, again general answer I gave to them. However, I learn a lot of thing during this time. Learn and growth are especially important for people weak like me, train to be strong. to grow, is a hope

Next, should be I need to start my new style of life, step my foots into this big city, working life and no more study life with is totally different. Start my financial planning too after graduate. This new life is a long path to go, if not planning well, maybe the same routine gonna to continue until retirement.

Relationship, relationship with family, different hierarchy level of friends ==, colleagues grow stronger as I wished. I cherish it always, especially every time I go back to home, I can see how my parents enjoy their life, nothing special, just peaceful and simple as they wished. Of course be their son, I am happy with that, and also my sister and brother, always support me to give me drive to thrush.

As a conclusion, not much highlight, and not much is consider a good news for me as I enjoy the simple life, especially when I getting older, haha. Last part, wish for new year 2011, to earn more money, stay healthy, happily as previous year, for my family and friends around me. Happy new year everyone.Dawn

Bed time story-Listen and understand 19 December 2010

In the previous week, I received a call for interview again and this time is for Cad designer for a company located in Mutiara Damansara. And yet, still pending for one interview for sale engineer, didn’t put much hope on this, but feel like if I can have a chance to meet with the person in charge, not for interview, but get to know each other and job scope can be interesting enough for me. I treat these as an opportunity for me to have a bigger eyes sight, however not rush for change the current job even thus I not really like it. 

Get some advices from my very best friend. Do give me some helpful guidance on my financial plan. I know the rules and ways to let us achieve freedom in our own financial since the time before I graduate, but seem it require a very strong willingness to make it into the right pathway as planned. Almost deviate from the pathway that I set during the time I just step in to working life, and again you pull me back and comfort me with my current situation. I need to re-figure my way, I single wrong step will cause impact to my life later on, define back what I want to be.

This is not the only thing I gained yesterday. I realize that you are the smart one in planning and how hard you work for your plan from initial stage until know. Just a few lines of words from you, I can sense how difficult your life in the past. Get to know more, to understand more, to tolerate more, to more and more…. Be a better man. Thanks and sleep tight.

Buddy of 5. Again. 5 December 2010

Yesterday, went to Mid Valley for our monthly course mates gathering. This time only got 4 people, PC, YC, Joshua and me. At first I plan to go there by taxi from LRT station, unfortunately the taxi go and bang the traffic light. The taxi driver asked me to call another taxi in the half way. What a funny day and I need to walk back to the LRT station with a lot question marks in my mind. This end by taking LRT, then KTM to my destination. This is my 4^th time to take KTM, this is a bad experience again, didn’t delay this time, but super crowded. Anyway, this let me have chance to experience ‘live’.In Mid Valley

Christmas is just around the corner, nice decoration in the mall, with a lot of toy and Christmas trees as usual for every year. Here I snapped some photo, and in the moment I snap the picture, suddenly feel like I long time didn’t snap photo after I stay in KL, just like a local man won’t take photo in their own place. Haha, what I’m saying? I don’t know.Kitchi Miao

This is a super nice gathering, because we are buddy of 5 in our course last time. One team in doing assignment, all lazy, same pattern, talk nonsense… hang out together, shopping, eating, mamak-ing, sohai-ing around the campus, ride the bike go here and there. 3 out of 4 are working, one the smart one continue to study PhD without need to take his master. We miss our campus, and Joshua keep update us what had happened in the campus, and we tell them about our current life and work. Again, non-stop laughing. Really cherish the moment we spend together, even chat about what we had did last time in school is fun. Friendship forever.

A quick update 27 November 2010

Long time I had leave this space already, just receive a bad new from my friend, my friend’s mum is passed away last week, RIP. I lot of thing happening around us and this teaches me need to cherish everything that we have and enjoy the life. 

Again new update for working, I think I had passed the transition period in this job already, and most of the simple thing I can understand and solve it by my own without need a lot of assistance by other prty. One thing that I still cannot handle is the meeting, I facing difficulties to chair the meeting, as I’m new in this new department too, what I can do now is only can do whatever that is controllable in my part, I hard to control the meeting as we know the meeting in WD is not a simple one. If the staff engineer in my team can perform as what he can, and if my manager can be more smart in handle the issue, haiz.

Someone is very busy for the moment, get sick quite often, because not have enough rest. This is not the first time, and if this is the first time, I still remember that this atmosphere can be quite suffering because you don’t even want to tell and share me the troubles. I know that I cannot help at your side, but I’m not your nobody, I hope you can tell and share, just like every time when I get lost and struggle, I single word from you will makes thing different in view. Is ok la, gambate ok?

Hometown again for 4 days 7 November 2010

Went back hometown for 4 days, additional one-day leave and Deepavali holiday. Go back SP can be very nice, but this time only leave me alone in the home with my parents since my sister and my bro going to travel, exam for my bro. the journey to go back SP from here can be tired. Leave office about 6pm, and rush for the bus, delay plus everything that is unpleasant, end up with reach home in early 6am in the morning. 

First time I get cheat by people in the bus station, and this lesson teach me we should only use our compassion for the right situation and case only. Don’t judge the person by their pity face, even now a lot youngster are liar. Other case is the time when I first step in KL, I simply give my hp number to stranger and this created some chaos. This city is different from SP, even for now if I encounter the same case that I people come and beg for borrow some money, claim that they loss their wallet because of the pick pocket, I think I still will do the same thing, but of course in the smart way, help, but don’t give money.

Attend an interview last week, the factory located in SP. This company already gives me a not bad offer but I still not yet receive the offer letter, not know the details of the other benefits. Here is another junction for me to decide to leave or to stay. Always have the pros and cons for the decision. If I accepted and stay in SP, I scare I will loss of my spirit to fight and learn new thing. This is extremely important for me since I am fresh graduated. Anyway, this is a big decision, only will make my final decision in within this week. Bless for myself.

Hobby 30 October 2010

Seriously, I need to redefine what is my hobby other than just keep stay in the room and facing my laptop. After graduate, I never take sport anymore. Work is occupying majority of the time, however I still hope that I can know more new friends, at least got some healthy activities during the weekend. Working life is different with study life, we are hard to get a new friend to hang out like what we did it crazy in school life. Where can I get more friends? By social and join club?

No time is no an excuse for me because most of the time I feel tire and don’t think that want to find some outdoor activity during the weekend. Stay in room and take a good rest without thinking too much. Now I need to walk out from the room. I know it is not easy as I’m alone. Dinner outside alone can be quite very embarrass once a lot of people are looking for the seat and I’m the only one occupying the whole table. Sometimes eager for some food, but the portion is not really friendly to me since I cannot finish it alone.  

Haha, like very pity only, but I’m trying to adapt myself to it. Just come back from mall to buy some simple food to keep in the room. After feel months, I can feel that I start to have some aunty syndrome- buy a lot to keep when the price is marking down. Stuff with the label of ‘discount’ will most be my first priority to pick it up.

Lastly, to some special in mind, you smile because u knew. Ganbate.

Oh ya, today no highlight for working stuff… :P next week highlight for whole blog.. wakaka.

Job-hunting in progress 24 October 2010

This week onwards I have start my job hunting. Maybe all of you all think that is that no more turn for my decision had been made? My answer is: Yes, but I not rush to escape immediately unless got something trigger me to resign straight away without a good backup plan. For the meantime, ‘something that I had mentioned is such as my colleagues resign, new issue that makes me feel uncomfortable. 

Until here I know that a lot of you will start to think of why I give up so early? Strawberry generation… bla3. This job is not suitable to me, maybe I cannot withstand with the work pressure that I need to always stand by even midnight or weekend for decision making. Haha, a lot more reason I can gave, but don’t want to tell you, because I know all people hate listen to it. :P

I had no idea what kind of job I need to find for this time, the constraint for me is the location of the company since I cannot go too far with my little motorbike, unless I move house. This is not a quick change that I can make, at least take me 2 months time for me to settle my current house moving out notice (not know what to call for that, correct me :P). So, mostly I will stay until early of next year, if no ‘something’ happened.

Some company that I’m targeting for now, such as IME (CAD CAM design software company), Dutch Lady, BAT and Sime Darby. Still wonder why I still targeting MNC, I also wonder why, haha. The reason is because all these companies are near to my current location, just few kilometer for my house. Just put a little hope for me so that I can go interview easy with my kapchai.. :P

Bless for me for my day. enjoy ^^

Achievement after graduate 101010 Sunday

We had gathering in 1 Utama yesterday, total 5 of us attended this gathering. We plan to have a gathering every month with our coursemates which work or study in this area. Gathering, of course we have chat a lot and update the current life after we graduate for nearly 4 months. In summary, total got 3 of our members chose for further study, the rest are all working in different field; 5 in central area, 4 in Singapore, 3 in Penang, 1 in JB. 

Just know that few of us already change their job in within 2 months they spend in the company. I not know the reason they change their job, and most of the reason is they want to get the higher pay. Some work in Penang already shift to Singapore, and I know the rest will also slowing shift to there too due to the currency rate different. Some even can get more that the amount my company paid me, and again they are in SGD.

Now I realize that it is quite difficult for me to save money in PJ due to the expenses is too high compare to other area. My friends rent a house that got 3 rooms, the rental is only 300 bucks per months (somewhere in Shah Alam and Klang area). Some becomes home tutor for 2 kids, 60 bucks per hour. Some work in Shah Alam there, remuneration and grow in the company is much more better than me, and they told me that is an easy job and you can go back everyday sharp in 5.30pm. Some told me they work late, but they can claim all the OT … these few statement keep on flash in my mind, maybe I’m currently in the slow moving lane? Why I need to work late but cannot claim the OT? And it take my chances for being a home tutor too at night after work…  but maybe I’m not the ambitious one.. blek.

Instead of keep asking why, I need rather adjust back my current moving lane, define back what is the thing that is important to me. I easily brain washed by other individual, from colleagues and friends around me as well. These will all make me to hesitate and confuse, wander left and right, thinking of change job, change working area, to speed up myself to save more money. Talk is super easy, but hard to implement. I know that I need to be firm and get all the thing stable first before I can make changes on it. Stay firm and do my best in the current position, this job maybe cannot secure me for a good future, but I know that there are a lot of other thing that I can learn through it, keep learning everyday, new challenges, and look back, I really can see a significant changes and improvement I done and I gain week by week. Haha, why I describe my current company so badly, come on wei, we are MNC leh, one of the dream company for fresh graduate.

Hi , good day Ah Huam, gambate.

What is the plan recently? 2 October 2010

I had leaved out my blog for 2 weeks, since I went back hometown last weekend. Anyway, that is a very nice 2 days spend and I plan to go back once a month, to recharge back everything and sure I miss everything in my hometown, my family, friends and everything. Thanks for my friends that always come out and making fun around together, even sometimes, it is quite lame, but we always enjoy the ‘lame’.this blog nothing related with these pictures, just I like these pictures captured by ES, nice snap.

This time went back I get to know that my cousin going to marry already. This cousin is 4 years old older than me, and he got his plan for marry once he step out from university. He work in Singapore for 4 years plus, and seem getting rich, manage to get a new house in SP that cost 300+ K, expenses for honeymoon cost about 20K to Europe… Haha, good job and I will try to attend the wedding in this month very soon.

Recently start to think of a lot of thing, other than working, need start to plan for my own financial planning. Almost 3 months I had been here, I plan that I can save about 50% of my monthly income. 50% is quite high, but this is not impossible for me to do that, because for now I didn’t have much commitment.

Not how much you can earn, but how much you can save. If I can work in SP, sure I will save a lot… :PQE, all girls, my name is Quota

me and our technicians 

Guna last day

Last week got a lot of activities in the company, colleagues’ birthday, farewell for colleague. The turnover in my department is high, and new colleagues will join us very soon too, to fight over the huge workload and stress. Anyway, bon vogaye and enjoy your new working life in the new company. :)Hari Raya Potluck, thanks for the very nice Malay traditional food.

Flip flop Trend 19 September 2010

Flip flop trend of feeling now existing in my mind. I not know what I can do to overcome this feeling, sometimes it very worst, sometimes it is okay, but it never been well, unless it is holiday. I know this is kinda come from my attitude problem, and affected by people around me in the group. I’m helpless, try to survive, I believe this is the transition period, and I will finally adapt to it, but the adapting process can be quite painful for me until sometimes I got a very strong intend to give up, but after calm down, I feel that it is still okay for all. For this moment I again want to express special thanks to my very special friend, always give me support, and change all my negative to positive, or at least neutral it. No point to keep complaint and ranting, better keep my mind calm and do what I can. – simple philosophy, but hard to implement… haha.

Yesterday got chat with my coursemate, he also almost facing the same problem with me, and again I understand this is the different between study and working. Some resign in the first day working also got, some work happily. I know I am not the only one facing the problem, just can categories in a bit unlucky one, but look from other perspective, we are the lucky one because we encounter it in the earliest of the working life, much more better if we only face it when we are nearly retire.

Stop to talking regarding work.

This week I got plan to go back home, my sweet home that I miss it so much, the place that I can feel that I am protected. I know I’m the manja one, especially when facing something unhappy, haha. I plan to take one day leave to go back, it is not worth for me to go back for 2 days, minus the minor one, only left one day.my moon cake, you told me it is a mini one

Today I received a moon cake, I keep it in refrigerator already, yum2. Thanks a lot. Every time meet you I also feel that you are very knowledgeable. Haha, ganbate ya. 

Thank you 12 September 2010

I had leaved this blog for almost a month, and now I need to continue my little space. The reason for this post is I want to appreciate special thank to my special one. Recently I become down due to different type of stress that pressing me. Fortunately, there are always somebody with their endless support. I feel very touch. I can overcome a lot of thing when you give me scourge, scourge for me to continue the tough one. Sometimes just feel that it is not easy, but I know what should I do. I know that all the good thing are waiting for us, at least now we are more close in distance, target destination, and soon will work for our same target. This is the last semester for somebody, and you told me all your plans are queuing in line with the timeframe. I am also glad to listen to that; I know these are your target for these few years. I know you tire, you always is my model, Rambo ^^

The feeling coming back again, but I know it is normal. 12 September 2010

Mid of September already, had been here for 2 months, a lot of thing happen recently, and I had stressed up by the tone of workload, company inter-personal issue… many and many. It can be easily detect out from my face, and I start to scare going to work every day, anxious and feel helpless. Now I feel like I need to have a new mind set, for doing everything. After calm down in these 3 days, I know the first thing I need to do is to overcome the feeling of “fear”. Don’t easy get panic when the trouble is happening, just do it as you can, if it is over myself capability, and I cannot solve it, I will ask for guidance from senior. The problem is they are not so helpful, and I feel very suffer when I’m in the middle of 2 difference parties.

Ya, this seem is a ‘rant’ blog for me, allow me to rant it out. I just don’t like:

You all say all is about common sense. The flow of the work is too subjective, you all please don’t tell me this is common sense, I will feel more comfortable if you all tell me that is about experiences. Please guide me more with more patients.

Tomato manager please guide me la, you are suppose be my shield, not in versa vice. When I ask you for advice, I don’t like you tell me you don’t know, and ask me to ask other people with your unpleasant voice. Be brave a bit.

Haiz, not good to rant too much, I know this is just a small portion of the troubles I facing, there are more and more queuing behind. The only one I can advise myself is pay more attention and patient, see and go through for a few months before give up, because I believe when I overcome all of this, my experience will teach me well. Even I try a new job, new challenges will come to me too. Now, take this challenges in WD, after overcome this tough one, I will become tough too indeed. Give myself another 3 months, let say it is not suitable for me, just go with what I wish to do.

Anyway, thanks for this job, because now I realize that a lot of thing is not so important, and now I more cherish everything I have, especially moment with the love one, family, friends. Priceless. Gogogo, I support myself. It is not easy for you to move to KL, don’t give up. Yeah2

传说“七夕”

这是一个很美丽的，千古流传的爱情故事，成为我国四大民间爱情传说之一。 传说天上有个织女星，还有一个牵牛星。织女和牵牛情投意合，心心相印。可是，天条律令是不允许男欢女爱、私自相恋的。织女是王母的孙女，王母便将牵牛贬下凡尘了，令织女不停地织云锦以作惩罚。

　　织女的工作，便是用了一种神奇的丝在织布机上织出层层叠叠的美丽的云彩，随着时间和季节的不同而变幻它们的颜色，这是“天衣”。自从牵牛被贬之后，织女常常以泪洗面，愁眉不展地思念牵牛。她坐在织机旁不停地织着美丽的云锦以期博得王母大发慈心，让牵牛早日返回天界。
　　一天，几个仙女向王母恳求想去人间碧莲池一游，王母今日心情正好，便答应了她们。她们见织女终日苦闷，便一起向王母求情让织女共同前往，王母也心疼受惩后的孙女，便令她们速去速归。

　　话说牵牛被贬之后，落生在一个农民家中，取名叫牛郎。后来父母下世，他便跟着哥嫂度日。哥嫂待牛郎非常刻薄，要与他分家，只给了他一条老牛和一辆破车，其他的都被哥哥嫂嫂独占了，然后，便和牛郎分家了。

　　从此，牛郎和老牛相依为命，他们在荒地上披荆斩棘，耕田种地，盖造房屋。一两年后，他们营造成一个小小的家，勉强可以糊口度日。可是，除了那条不会说话的老牛而外，冷清清的家只有牛郎一个人，日子过得相当寂寞。牛郎并不知道，那条老牛原是天上的金牛星。

　　这一天，老牛突然开口说话了，它对牛郎说：“牛郎，今天你去碧莲池一趟，那儿有些仙女在洗澡，你把那件红色的仙衣藏起来，穿红仙衣的仙女就会成为你的妻子。”牛郎见老牛口吐人言，又奇怪又高兴，便问道：“牛大哥，你真会说话吗？你说的是真的吗？”老牛点了点头，牛郎便悄悄躲在碧莲池旁的芦苇里，等候仙女们的来临。

　　不一会儿，仙女们果然翩翩飘至，脱下轻罗衣裳，纵身跃入清流。牛郎便从芦苇里跑出来，拿走了紫色的仙衣。仙女们见有人来了，忙乱纷纷地穿上自己的衣裳，像飞鸟般地飞走了，只剩下没有衣服无法逃走的仙女，她正是织女。织女见自己的仙衣被一个小伙子抢走，又羞又急，却又无可奈何。这时，牛郎走上前来，对她说，要她答应做他妻子，他才能还给她的衣裳。织女定睛一看，才知道牛郎便是自己日思夜想的牵牛，便含羞答应了他。这样，织女便做了牛郎的妻子。
　　他们结婚以后，男耕女织，相亲相爱，日子过得非常美满幸福。不久，他们生下了一儿一女，十分可爱。牛郎织女满以为能够终身相守，白头到老。
　　可是，王母知道这件事后，勃然大怒，马上派遣天神仙女捉织女回天庭问罪。

　　这一天，织女正在做饭，下地去的牛郎匆匆赶回，眼睛红肿着告诉织女：“牛大哥死了，他临死前说，要我在他死后，将他的牛皮剥下放好，有朝一日，披上它，就可飞上天去。”织女一听，心中纳闷，她明白，老牛就是天上的金牛星，只因替被贬下凡的牵牛说了几句公道话，也贬下天庭。它怎么会突然死去呢？织女便让牛郎剥下牛皮，好好埋葬了老牛。

　　正在这时，天空狂风大作，天兵天将从天而降，不容分说，押解着织女便飞上了天空。
　　正飞着、飞着，织女听到了牛郎的声音：“织女，等等我！”织女回头一看，只见牛郎用一对箩筐，挑着两个儿女，披着牛皮赶来了。慢慢地，他们之间的距离越来越近了，织女可以看清儿女们可爱的模样子，孩子们了都张开双臂，大声呼叫着“妈妈”，眼看，牛郎和织女就要相逢了。可就在这时，王母驾着祥云赶来了，她拔下她头上的金簪，往他们中间一划，霎时间，一条天河波涛滚滚地横在了织女和牛郎之间，无法横越了。

　　织女望着天河对岸的牛郎和儿女们，直哭得声嘶力竭，牛郎和孩子也哭得死去活来。他们的哭声，孩子们一声声“妈妈”的喊声，是那样揪心裂胆，催人泪下，连在旁观望的仙女、天神们都觉得心酸难过，于心不忍。王母见此情此景，也稍稍为牛郎织女的坚贞爱情所感动，便同意让牛郎和孩子们留在天上，每年七月七日，让他们相会一次。

　　从此，牛郎和他的儿女就住在了天上，隔着一条天河，和织女遥遥相望。在秋夜天空的繁星当中，我们至今还可以看见银河两边有两颗较大的星星，晶莹地闪烁着，那便是织女星和牵牛星。和牵牛星在一起的还有两颗小星星，那便是牛郎织女的一儿一女。
　　牛郎织女相会的七月七日，无数成群的喜鹊飞来为他们搭桥。鹊桥之上，牛郎织女团聚了！织女和牛郎深情相对，搂抱着他们的儿女，有无数的话儿要说，有无尽的情意要倾诉啊！

　　传说，每年的七月七日，若是人们在葡萄架下葡萄藤中静静地听，可以隐隐听到仙乐奏鸣，织女和牛郎在深情地交谈。直是：相见时难别亦难，他们日日在盼望着第二年七月七日的重逢。

　　后来，每到农历七月初七，相传牛郎织女鹊桥相会的日子，姑娘们就会来到花前月下，抬头仰望星空，寻找银河两边的牛郎星和织女星，希望能看到他们一年一度的相会，乞求上天能让自己能象织女那样心灵手巧，祈祷自己能有如意称心的美满婚姻，由此形成了七夕节。

Convocation 11 August 2010

First of all, my flowers from my parents

8 August is my convocation. I had applied 2 days leave for attending this ceremony. When back to home, start I realize that the atmosphere of my home is so nice, father and mum are busy with preparation for my convocation, booked the flower, go style their hair, decide what colour of cloths that need to wear. Actually this event is not much feeling for me, maybe is due to I start to work and the anger is becomes lesser. I have a very peaceful mind, I am happy because of my parents are happy.I  super like this photo:  I  smile at this moment, the time is freeze for the moment

My lovely family with meSpecial thanks to a group of friends from SP, E Seng and S Choo

We depart from house, and reach main campus in the afternoon. After take the robes, my mum help me to wear it, and the hat (I know is not called hat, anyone can provide me the correct name?), and enter the hall with a gang of friends.

After come out from the ceremony, I received some present and thousand tons of blesses from family and friends, especially to my super senior and his girlfriend that purposely come after work, Seng and Choo, representative from hometown friends, and all my juniors. Thank you. I keep the words short, let it explain more with photo.with all course mates

My senior, juniors and coursemateswith Y Yungwith Y Chin, with his blue hippo in hand

In the next day, my family went to take photo in studio. I want to save money, so I plan to choose the small size photo, but my parents especially my father want me to take the big size one, because he said sister already got one in living room, so he plan to get the photo of 3 of us; me is the second, and next year my brother will be the last. Of course, I said yes to my father, I knew this is their wish, very important wish, they will feel proud. I love my family and friends.

So, next destination, hopefully is not my retirement at 60 years old, finger crossed.With the hall at the back

Here is the end of my university life and my study life for nearly 20 years. I labeled the day as my own big day. For someone that  cannot attend my event in my big day, I willing to share every special moment to you. Time is freeze in the moment the flash is on, but my love is never. Thank you for entering my life, guide and bring me to the sunshine. 

Specially for all of you....

Today is my birthday 31 July 2010

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link for last year birthday

Today is my birthday, a thousand tons of bless from family, friend and friends, but this makes me feel very lonely in contrast. New environment, new life as I said, and  this is the wish that I made last year. I just refer back the wish I had made last year, and I found that the wish is come true, but I am not really happy for the moment, because I loss myself in the crowd. Once thing I need to always bear in mind is I need myself to become more happy, yes, live happily for the person that I love and the parties that who love and care about me, I know they will worry if I keep on to live like this.

Let make a wish, or wishes. My wish for this year is almost the same, that is all people around me stay happily and nicely, always healthy as well is the most important one. This morning I went to a clinic that far from my house, and after have a lunch alone, I suddenly think of what kind of life I actually want, for now I can tell is, I want a simple live, stay with the person I love, with my family. Maybe someday in the future I bankrupt, but I believe I will happy in this way of life. I got nothing to loss, just start from now I need to more take care of myself, because I found that sometimes when I feel alone, I really not take a good care of myself, skip meal, don’t want to eat, and even didn’t pay full attention on the road will driving. These are very worst, start from now I cannot do this anymore, a lot of people that love me will feel very disappointed if I keep on act like this, sorry to make you all worry, I will become a guai2 boy, listen and obedience. I dream is still the same, I hope that I can have my own baker shop, sell some simple cookies, cake, because I believe that cake a dish that will make you feel happiness and blessedness. This will be a happy life even I am busy in the kitchen.

Yesterday I met someone, the person that rush from busy work and celebrate my early birthday. I am very happy and touched with your action, even the time is very short, but I understand that you do very best in your effort. You told me that you will improving life, this is the most touch phase that I heard, yes, I will do that too… this is life, and I’m alive, improving our life, our family life is the unstoppable ultimate goal that we need to work hard for.

Last, be happy, enjoy the show, pay more attention in work, be more confident… next week is my convocation, final destination for my study life, want to say thousand thank to my parents, my papa mama, thank a lot for giving me this, I knew this is not easy for two of you to walk until this stage, my mum insist to take the family photograph for my convocation, I knew this is not only my certificate, is a certificate and prove for my mama papa, that finally your best life before sunset is coming, not far from here. 

I LOVE U

 

Adapting 25 July 2010

Second week I be here, and finally my motorbike was successfully delivered to me, this indicate that I no need to tumpang my friend’s car for the rest days, since my friend going to resign in very soon. For what I can say is hopefully it didn’t rain for the time I want go to work and the time I want to go back.

Fall in sick a couple days ago, fever and I feel very uncomfortable for that, that why I applied half day MC and took taxi back to my room. I feel so helpless on the way walking to get a taxi in the rush road, under the hot sun, but still need to thank that luckily is not raining day and the taxi pass by me in within 10 mins. When back to my room, I found that I didn’t have food to eat, even I know that this is not good for take the medicine with empty stomach. Until the next day, I bought some bread after I get my motor, no appetite but still need to eat, to provide some energy to recover back faster as possible. 

These are some predicted cases, since I understand my body is weak due to everything, especially with the rapid changes of the pace of life. This is the incident that let me know how important the healthy is meaning for a person especially when you are living alone. 
Yesterday is the happy day, because I met my friend, bought something from the supermarket... this definitely worth more than one or two lines that I can express here. full of orange, yummy2, give me vitamin C, no more running nose

Hopefully tomorrow I can recharge back for the new coming week… yehaa.. give me some courage please… last, want to thank for my parents, sister and brother, I love you all, sometimes I am too stubborn, and makes you all worry, but I didn’t intent to do that, just I sick, I didn’t tell you all, because scare you all worry me. Huggy. 

First week 17 July 2010

First week in PJ, in challenges, a lot of new thing to me, I need to cope all the thing that come to me, and as what I posted last few times, all of these are almost in my expectation. All I can tell is, it is not easy. Maybe I still need some time, and a transport for me to adapt better than now. I trying to make myself more cheerful and think in positively, perhaps this will make all the thing to becomes less painful. Just to know that my bike cannot been shipped to me in this week, and it declares another nightmare week in the following, I am hungry now, starving for food.

First week in working, first week become an engineer, not much special feeling on that, all the thing go smooth and quite comfortable actually. This is the real working environment for me to go through, it is a stressful job, and of course I will try myself the best to take over the challenges. This is the most terrible department in the company, lead my 2 iron ladies that stress everything in fast response and effectiveness. 

“You are new staff from XX department to take place XX right? Your seat is ‘hot seat’ o…”
Someone told me in the office told me this in first few days. 
In short, new life is coming. Thank from my family members, friend and friends for support. Appreciate for it... thank you.

Why I got such feeling again? 11 July 2010

This feeling is as same as the feeling that I have last year during my internship period. I not know why this such feeling come back again to me, maybe the situation for now is same as what I faced last year. I am new to this environment, I hope that I can adapt myself as fast as possible to this environment. I’m scare when I’m alone in the room, or maybe can say as I am scare because I am alone all the way in the city. Today I had spent my time with friend, again asked for help to brought me to the mall and shop to buy some cookies and mattress. I need to tightly control my financial for the month before I can get my first paid. In the evening, I walked alone in my area, with an umbrella and bottle in my bag, just like a people who loss in the city. I tried to find the location of the bus stop, food court.

Tomorrow is my first working day, and my friend told me she wants to resign soon. She told a lot this and that, and as what I posted in the previous post, I had kinda loss my confident to work for a long period in this company. However, I always remind myself not to give up so easily, but it is not easy for me to walk from the start until this stage, I cannot let people that care of me to disappointed as I’m the strawberry generation. 
- Be proactive in working
- Don’t scare to ask
- Don’t scare the troubles , as troubles is unavoidable in life
- Don’t scare people
- Don’t scare to sacrifice your time to learn and ask
- Active learning, jot down notes, incident 

Daddy and mum already called me twice in the day, I know they worry about me, as I’m like a little boy that always make them worry, thank for call me always, and this makes me not feel as lonely here. My dad wants help me to send the motorbike to me, but the other side my friend keep tell me that is so danger to ride motor in this area, I have to tell I had no choice, what I can do is: I will careful.
I really feel so lonely for the moment. I miss, I miss.

Ready to GO 9 July 2010

Ready to go? The feeling is quite calm, but seems like a lot of thing need me to go through bravely. This is the new chapter for me, new phase for me to go. Now I plan to send my motorbike to there and start to contact with the shipment company, but yet need to see their schedule and my available time in PJ.

My friend who working in the same company with me has plans to resign soon. She is currently in the same department with me, and she start to rants almost every time we meet her. This wasn’t a good news for me and this indirectly has much increase my pressure before I join the company. Strong mentality is needed for me to overcome this pressure, and I need to tell myself almost every job is like that. Working is totally different with the time when we study, since we are bonded with huge responsibility especially in those company that involve high volume production rate per day. The lesson can be quite painful if wrong decision is made. I not yet join the department, so I cannot comment more in that, but I hope that I can remember what my mind is thinking current for this moment, remember this and no to say surrender to it, no matter what.

Since I am fresh graduate, should learn thing in an open mind, this is the chance for me to go through harshly. As what my senior told me, go through these kind of challenges when you’re still young is much better that when you face these when you’re old. I have nothing to loss. Saw some friends that they posted some of their working life in FB, so I can almost tell, almost everywhere are the same.
Tomorrow onward there will be a new milestone, it may be a not easy for me a kampung boy to adapt, I need your support.

《茉莉花开》9 July 2010

《茉莉花开》是一部反映一家三代女性的爱情与婚姻的故事，发生在三十年代、五十年代和八十年代，以独特视角展现了二十世纪中国的历史变迁和女人的命运。

　　茉，一个由经营着照相馆的单亲母亲养大的18岁少女，在遇到孟老板后一生的命运发生了改变，她成了明星，同时也怀上了孟老板的小孩，那是上个世纪30年代旧上海的事；茉生下孩子不久就被抛弃了，失去了明星的光彩，她为这个私生女取名叫莉，莉一心要离开这个阴冷的家，嫁给了水泥厂工人邹杰，她决定生个小孩，但她偏偏不能生育，只能从福利院抱了一个女孩，取名叫花，莉对生活仍然极度不满，甚至怀疑自己的丈夫与养女有染，丈夫选择了卧轨自杀，这是上个世纪五六十年代的事；莉精神分裂离家出走了，花找了个男友小杜，在结婚后怀孕不久发现小杜有了外遇，她坚决地提出离婚并把小孩生了下来，这已是上世纪80年代的事……

"Jasmine Women" is reflected that a three generation of feminine love and the marital story, occurs in the 30s, the 50s and the 80s, has unfolded the 20th century China's historical vicissitude and woman's destiny by the unique angle of view.

This is a nice movie to share with, and this should be the first movie that I post in my blog. The director of this movie is Hou Yong and the main actress is ZhangZiyi. When I see this movie, I'm wonder where am I, but I dont care, I know where is my final destination. I borned to be stronger day to day.

Goalsss 7 July 2010

Going to work soon, as the title above, they are many goals that I need to bear in mind for always, without clear mission and goal, people will loss his or her direction along the road. My path of finding the job is like a bike moving on uneven terrain, no too smooth but I treat this as a path that need me to go through, sometimes if everything going too smooth is not a good thing for us to grow, at least now, hopefully I have some little ‘growth’. If for last time, I sure cannot imagine that I have the courage to travel from east to west, from north to south, but did it, there is nothing to be fear unless I fear or fail to myself.
The goal that I had mentioned is not the grandness one, as I didn’t have the ultimate goal for my life yet (kidding la, sure have one, ultimate goal sure won’t tell you here de la ><).

The first goal for sure is I can survive and adapt well in the new environment, working environment and new life environment. This is my first job, of course, excludes others part time job that I worked for last time, here I need to implement what I learn in more than 17 years. This is different from others job last time, this time I need to pay more attention and responsibility in the field, as it is not only the question of like or dislike. The crucial point is how well I can integrate all the knowledge, and applies it in real life.

The second one is manage my financial. For the moment, I hope that I can have at least 50% saving for what I earned. I hope that I will use this portion wisely, for saving or any other investment, or insurance. 50% is kinda high? Just I am still young, no much load that I need to bear with. The other portion will spend as normal as other people, and I want to buy a new bag, some new cloths, watch, diamond, ruby…. ><

The next goal is always be strong, positive, healthy life style. These are the important factors that I need to set in my mind, so that I can have a clear and strong soul to go over challenges without fear or hesitation. Besides that, good attitude in working or life is a must for me.

So tire, stay tuned. I will come back. Just now chat with my coursemate that had went to Singapore to work, the feeling is great, and I told him that I never regret to start work late, and this is the best holiday ever for me as I had found back the meaning of life and the happiness with my hometown friends that I had long forgotten and last, of course the more closely relationship with my lovely family. Bless for … night

‘Yuan Lai Wo hen Qiong’ 4 July 2010

Just come back from a Penang trip 1 week ago with my special friend, this is a nice short trip indeed, thank you and I am very happy with that, maybe this is the last trip that we meet in Penang, but still I hope that we can make some visit again to this city in the future, the memorable place that we had spent for the years. Komtar area

In the coming next day to it, I went to KL again to collect the offer letter from the company, and rush my time to find a room in around PJ area, and finally, I success to get a room in S17. The room cost me 310 bucks for monthly rental fee. Since I am currently not moving in yet, so cannot comment more about the worth or not worth for that, but at least, the room and the house condition as well is far better that the others 3 rooms that I had visited before. Thank you for my friend Miss L to be my driver for the day. KLCC, again.. ><

Cute mouse family

I try to cherish every moment in the week before I go to work, and I treat this as a new chapter or milestone for me to go through, until 60 years old before retirement? Hopefully no. I started to pack some stuff and ask my friend help me to take it to PJ, so that I no need to carry too much thing at the time I travel next week. What my plan is I hope that I can ship my motorbike to the place, so that at least I got my own transport and not to rely too much on other once. 

Just relieve that I am going to bankrupt soon, pay for this one and that one, and buy this one and that one. All is necessary thing, not much I can save for it, the only is try to get the second-hand stuff, or select the cheap one to use for the moment. Mum want to give me some money, and I refused it, I still can survive, don’t worry for that, I promise I will take care of myself in the new environment, that is a new challenge for me to explore, I think I’m ready, maybe I’m not in real, anyway, just go, sometimes think more makes a people can’t enjoy the life, because that is an uncertainty. Good luck for me.

The date, we Graduate 22 June 2010

The date we graduate, 8 August 2010, 2 months from now. I get my final semester result last few weeks, and again this time I also get a dean list for the semester, a bit paiseh to use the word, ‘again’, pardon for your uncomfortable, haha. Anyway, this should be encouraged, at least I do my best to leap out from the school, my last exam result for degree.

So, you’re invited to attend my convocation, and remember to bring your present and together with your bless for me. 

Recently feel that the life is so peaceful, peace in everything, included the atmosphere in the home, the feeling is quite nice, and I start to realize that all the things change as the time flow through the time tunnel. Maybe I long time didn’t spend my time to obverse the little changes everytime I came back, and I seek this as the gain that I get within this unemployment period for the moment… at least…. gogogo

MEGA PROJECT 16 June 2010

happiness increase exponentially

Mid of June already, and finally I get my job offer, if everything go smoothly, I will start to work on early July. Not yet reach the destination, but you know I paid a lot of afford on this, at least I accomplish what I had planned long time ago and will continue to do as what I promised. The reality and the prove told me what decision that I need to make, but this maybe is not the best alternative, yet I believe there is nothing to be correct or wrong if we didn’t try, at least I pave the way and leave my first footprint on in. The way maybe rocky, this is the time for the kampung boy to test his wings in a new place, new life, new milestones, and new chapter of his life. I knew he needs a lot courage, support as well for it to fly. 

For the moment, I waiting for HR to call me to visit the company again to collect the confirmation letter, and start searching a small room around the area. Thank you for all friends that helped me a lot during my job hunting, even the path I undergo was not very smooth as other, last… thanks.

New plan should be planned, especially in future development, financial, lifestyle… many and many more before I have a good starting point in the new milestone. If let say I going to work from now to when I retire at about 55 years old, 30 years!!! There is equal to 1, 2, 3… total 6 Rancangan Malaysia between the interval instead of one for me. As a conclusion, is a MEGA PROJECT to go… @@

 

It can be painful 10 June 2010

skyscraper city

That is another trip to KL, to attend an interview in PJ. This is the 3rd time I travel to KL for the purpose for interview. These are all actually tire trips because I need to stay and rush from one to another one’s house, just to settle my accommodation problem. Anyway, this time I spent my night in hotel, because already feel very paiseh to those friends for their inconvenient. Thanks a lot for the adoption and of course special thank to the special one, and not least for YH and related person in the company that always help me to forward my resume from one to another. 

This time, the interview was held out in the condition that the interviewer keep explaining and tell me what is the responsibility for the position, whereas I seldom have chance to talk… that is quite special for me because mostly I am the talkative one in the interview. The interviewer told me that they don’t actually prefer to hire male, because male hardly spend their time long with them, because the job is quite stressful but can learn a lot of thing, so it always seek as a stepping stone for those.

"clown" in Pavilion 

Still waiting for the answer for the interview, and the waiting process can be quite painful, just tell me the result… haha. Nothing I can do, be patient and good luck. Let say this time fail again, maybe I gonna to reset my mind… bye bye loser