Travelling, financial, relationship, family 15 November 2012

Was in Bali last month, 24-28 October. Again, I feel lazy to update this blog, but still manage to ‘force’ myself to update it by tonight… haha. That is quite an enjoyable trip. The whole trip cost me about RM 1500, about RM360 for air ticket and RM 500 for accommodation. I had bought my very first canvas paint in my life, and this had triggered me to learn this art after I back to Malaysia. Planning to get those painting material tomorrow, my budget is not much, as I need to cut down my expenses currently. 

About financial, this month I need to cut out a big portion of my salary to pay for my car insurance (RM 1300), driving license renewal (RM 60 estimated) and some more got 2 friends going to marry in this month. After the travel and these expenses as listed, then only will free me up some space to breath slightly loosen, but no, I need to control and cut off the unnecessary expenses.

Turtle Island

Relationship, that is about 1 year from the previous one. I hope that he is doing great there after I’m not around with him, and indeed I think he is doing great too, wish you all the best in everything. That is the past one; on the other hand, the current is actually not bad too. We getting close with each other start to ‘reveal’ the real of ourselves. That is great, that is a kind of how we live our life peacefully, I appreciate it. Thanks.

This is the place that 'must' visit

Family, a little bit had forgotten which is not suppose to be. I plan to go back home at end of this month. That is too little thing I did to contribute to this little family, that is my bad. Sorry and I will do it better.

Our Villa, Anakula Villa in Seminyak

When I did it wrong-Again 10 August 2011

I did it wrong again. I getting loss and falling into the damp, I need you help to help me. Strong willingness to overcome the devil in my body is extremely needed. I hard to do it alone, but I must do it alone because nobody will know more that myself, and the final decision is still falling on myself.

Promise myself from now will spend more time on healthy activity, know more new friends and expend my eyes sight, and wash out the dirty inherent part. That is the way of getting myself freedom and conscience stays untainted, from today onwards…

But, I need your help, very sorry.

Adapting 25 July 2010

Second week I be here, and finally my motorbike was successfully delivered to me, this indicate that I no need to tumpang my friend’s car for the rest days, since my friend going to resign in very soon. For what I can say is hopefully it didn’t rain for the time I want go to work and the time I want to go back.

Fall in sick a couple days ago, fever and I feel very uncomfortable for that, that why I applied half day MC and took taxi back to my room. I feel so helpless on the way walking to get a taxi in the rush road, under the hot sun, but still need to thank that luckily is not raining day and the taxi pass by me in within 10 mins. When back to my room, I found that I didn’t have food to eat, even I know that this is not good for take the medicine with empty stomach. Until the next day, I bought some bread after I get my motor, no appetite but still need to eat, to provide some energy to recover back faster as possible. 

These are some predicted cases, since I understand my body is weak due to everything, especially with the rapid changes of the pace of life. This is the incident that let me know how important the healthy is meaning for a person especially when you are living alone. 
Yesterday is the happy day, because I met my friend, bought something from the supermarket... this definitely worth more than one or two lines that I can express here. full of orange, yummy2, give me vitamin C, no more running nose

Hopefully tomorrow I can recharge back for the new coming week… yehaa.. give me some courage please… last, want to thank for my parents, sister and brother, I love you all, sometimes I am too stubborn, and makes you all worry, but I didn’t intent to do that, just I sick, I didn’t tell you all, because scare you all worry me. Huggy. 

First week 17 July 2010

First week in PJ, in challenges, a lot of new thing to me, I need to cope all the thing that come to me, and as what I posted last few times, all of these are almost in my expectation. All I can tell is, it is not easy. Maybe I still need some time, and a transport for me to adapt better than now. I trying to make myself more cheerful and think in positively, perhaps this will make all the thing to becomes less painful. Just to know that my bike cannot been shipped to me in this week, and it declares another nightmare week in the following, I am hungry now, starving for food.

First week in working, first week become an engineer, not much special feeling on that, all the thing go smooth and quite comfortable actually. This is the real working environment for me to go through, it is a stressful job, and of course I will try myself the best to take over the challenges. This is the most terrible department in the company, lead my 2 iron ladies that stress everything in fast response and effectiveness. 

“You are new staff from XX department to take place XX right? Your seat is ‘hot seat’ o…”
Someone told me in the office told me this in first few days. 
In short, new life is coming. Thank from my family members, friend and friends for support. Appreciate for it... thank you.

Last soon 2 May 2010

Yesterday was my father’s birthday, celebrated with him in home with family. Father is 60+ years old already, I hope that he can spend his time happily everyday and always healthy. He is waiting for me, waiting for me for everything in very patient. Sorry for your son didn’t do his responsibility in well, always make you worry. Soon, in very soon…

Another 2 days I will do my viva, and this indicates the full stop of my university life. Start from tomorrow maybe will spend some time to take some photo around each corner in school, to snaps down the instant moment for memorization, and not least, collect back all the photo that I had miss out in my album collection. 

Again, the old fantasy, WD, dreaming from day to day, and maybe is the time to wake up. No matter how the result is at the end of the days, I appreciate a lot to the person in charge that help me a lot. I start to apply the job in Penang already, finally. I didn’t have enough confident in this, it’s hard to express with my cold words in one or two line.

Just promise to join coursemates to attend their trip, a bit late… haha. Em, I am sure that this will be a nice farewell trip. 

I am not disappear yet, but just hiding like a chameleon, a cute chameleon…wao… good luck for those who are started to work as an engineer tomorrow, it come truth at last. Gogogo  

No matter what, i will always make u smile 14 January 2010

Em, good afternoon, I had fall in sick since yesterday and again it flu and cough. Consult to the doctor already and after take the medicine, it make me feel blur and sleepy all the day. I cannot even think properly where I am and what is the purpose for me to cycle and come to computer lab since I didn’t have any class or activities to do in the school. Sit at here, and start to think, the best reason I come to here is I don’t want to stay alone in the room, it will make me feel more sick.

For this weekend, no matter what also, I want to let you know, I will always be there to support you, I won’t do anything to hurt you, believe me. I will keep silent. No matter what, I will support you, don’t give up. Not know how to express, but you will know what I am trying to say… love. So if the time is allow, come on saturday ok? I appreciate what ever that you had done.I will respect your answer, even i very hope that you still can come here. However, no matter what, I want you to stay happily, ok? My heart will break if I see you like that...cheer up ok? huggy

Later 5pm I will going to my squash class, I won’t think that I will play it later, since I am sick here, just go there and relax, release some stress, and again to avoid the bore environment in the room will let me feel more sick to it. Yaya, I need to take care of my body, because something is waiting for me to go, the only thing for me to do is always get ready to what which is coming to me, it is beautiful, I knew and I will.

Blogging 25 November 2009

 Almost 1 week stay at home, nothing to do and only slack in front of the computer. I have to start my FYP in this week. Most of the final year student will stay at school for their FYP progress, but except me and some minority. I planned to stay at home rather than in school because I feel that the life at school is kinda boring. Moreover, my mum and dad had started to chatter since my bro and I seldom come back to home during the weekend of the school days, even the journey is only 1 hour plus between school and my home. Sigh, 1 hour is for travelling by car. By using the public transportation, I had to call for the taxi, take the bus to Butterworth, again take the bus back to SP and walk for a short distance before I reach my home. This is actually nothing but once the bus routing is delayed, sometimes I have to wait for it for almost 1 hour for the uncertainty. The condition is kinda like: ada bus u naik, tak tau bila bas tu sampai. Still have to count for the journey which comes back from home to school…

Doing FYP in front of computer but I cannot stop to control my mind to surf the net. MSN, blogging, forum and Facebook. Still imagine how Facebook deprive our time. I didn’t addict with that, but I admit almost every time I online, I will surf for it. Playing the Happy Farm is my must have activity, but now seem like a bit boring because the feature is almost the same from the start to the end.

Soon I will go out for work already at PC fair. Today is simple setup and short briefing from the boss and it will follows by 4 days fair consecutively until next Sunday. My bro told me that the job is not easy and I also knew that especially for the job which deal with customer… haha, anyway I am only a part time worker, won’t be so stress maybe, if yes, shall I take this as a practice before I striding the stage out from the university? Just gain some extra working experience from there, earn so pocket money and survey for new my laptop or external hard disk, I stone, many birds. :)  so anyone if got come PC fair come and visit me ya, serve you with sweet smile.. ==’’’

6 months 8 November 2009

light up my life 

6 months already, I had learned a lot of things within these 6 months and I knew these things will make me growth. I learned the things from mistakes, and sometimes I even write down some important event in a piece of paper, hope that this will be a remainder for me to not repeat the mistake. Besides that, I will always remain myself to treat every single day as a new fresh day, just like the feeling of falling in first love of the first day. By the way, I can cherish every single day I have, as long as I stay in healthy and my friends around me stay healthy too. Some people say that trouble is a thing that occur once awhile and should be avoided because it makes our life in trouble, but I will rather say that trouble is a thing that happens all around the time, it is a part of our life. 

If I need to rate my own performance in these 6 months, I will only rate it as 50%. Why? Because I feel that sometimes I am too dependent and my thinking is immature. Don’t let emotion to take control and this is the thing that I always remain myself to do. Still got a lot for me to improve, and I will work hard ^^. 

Recently I kinda busy with preparation for my exam. Even though, the life is pretty simple, just follow the pace of life—wake up, eat, study, play computer games. Sometimes I think that this maybe is the ideal life for me, just very simple, I like it, it light up my life.

Before and After 6 September 2009

1 week before, still remember that I am waiting for 1 important phone call. I started to wait after my dinner in room, but decided to wait it outside, because there is a high contrast between the mood of my roommates and mine and his friends in my room. Furthermore, I am too tension already, need to walk out from this ‘’room’’. Take a walk around my hostel, and seem like it didn’t help me a lot, and I know that I need to go further, take my bike and go to the old place again. Once I reach there, I start to sit on the floor, and do what I want to release my mind after being stress up with all the things in that week. After I calm down, I start to think about why there is such empty concrete space at here with surrounding with a big field and lake. Then I slow down my footsteps, and there is some big words printed on the concrete area. Go through 1 by 1, ‘REDEC USM’…… and this makes me realizes that we can only see and notice the things around us clearly with a peacefully mind and slow pace of life style. The words on the floor is big, human is small and tiny, so we can’t see the words, only with peaceful mind, you can see it. My phone starts to ring at around 11pm…

1 week after that, I know what should I do and what mistakes had I done before, I readjust back my thinking style and start enjoy my life with smile, let smile conquer my life. There are some important things that I should do in order to let smile conquer my life, I list them out and let them become my reminder.

1. 1. Don’t let emotion take control

2. 2. Heal old wound

3. 3. Believe

4. 4. Cherish

See it, take it, face it, solve it and leave it. 5 steps, it is simple. Have a nice day ^^.

No title 27 August 2009

I spent more than 5 minutes to think about the title of this blog, and finally, I name it as ‘No Title’. Too many things happen in this week, it is too complex for me to describe it, and I seem like a genius, genius to create a lot of problems, since I was young… Nobody will understand me, nobody can talk to me, give some guidance to me. Some friends start to think that why I am so weird this week, get close to me and ask me whether need help or not, they can lend me their ears. I am glad to know that, appreciate for that.

Went to my brother room and borrow formal wear for presentation, but I not really need it, because my lecture allow me to present in normal wear. Called mama, wish for her birthday and ask her to prepare blanket and toothpaste for my brother to bring it to me next week, because I not listen to mama last time to replace my current worn-out blanket. Keep raining this few days, so cold, dai sei… I just want go to see my brother and talk to him, but the conversation end up with some funny joke from him; just want to call and listen to my papa mama’s voice, but it end up with: why don’t want follow brother go back this week? busy with homework? Your sister said that……

if you all can read my mind, will you all support me?

Sometimes, silent is a best language, but sometimes it can be a silent weapon to kill someone who love and care about you. I going to collapse soon, feel like want to give up, but I will control, because of I really care and love.

This is first time I have this feeling, who can I talk to? Still raining outside, still can listen to the rhythm of the pouring rain, and the rhythm of snore from my roommate… the mini fan still on the table, the solar power toy keep on nodding his head to me, he agree and observing what I am doing.. :) but my star refuse to shine, I am sorry.

I AM SO LUCKY 16 AUGUST 2009

Don’t know why, but feel that I am so lucky and I am glad to be in this stage of life… A lot of my friends graduated at last week, and still got a lot friends going to graduate soon in the second half of this year. Suddenly think of I also going to graduate soon, 6 + 5 + 2 + 4 total 17 years of study which is not included for kindergarten period had really tire up myself, and this makes me seem like have no energy to going for further studies after I graduate. I had no any plan for my future before that, and now I realize that this is the time for me to plan for my future. I know my own weaknesses and plan to strengthen myself by reading some other books and hopefully these will help me in the future.

Haha, the sound kinda seem like I want to ignore my studies for my final year? Haha, not actually, but now I feel that I am not allow to spend too much time on my studies, because there are a lot things that had been ignored by me in the last 16 years. I should catch out them, and try to do some compensate on that. This action is not consider as I am slowing down my momentum to thrust at the end-point on my studies life, but it is a way for me to plan and build my own runway which has more even terrain, so that it allow me to fly further and longer.

As I stated above, I am so lucky. Sometimes, I think that what makes a people feel that he or she is lucky, fate? I am no comment on that, but I know that the way of thinking will directly affect your luck. I will appreciate everything that people done for me, even for a small thing I will appreciate it. It is very simple, but simple doesn’t mean that it is easy to implement. Sometimes, we should look back the past because there is the way we find back our naivete after being contaminant by the dark, but we should remember that there is no tendency to let the past experiences get in way of present happiness, it should be just a guide. Finally, thank you for all my family and friends, all of you bring luck to me.

Remember when you got your first bike and couldn't wait to ride it like all of the other big kids but you kept falling and falling until one day you gave up and ran inside, teary-eyed, losing all hope? You vowed to never pick up that two wheeled bandit again. You liked to ride, but it was all just too painful. Your mom wiped your tears and looked into your eyes, whispering, "Don't worry my dear, practice makes perfect. When you fall, just pick yourself back up, relax, take a deep breathe and ride, ride again!"

I found that this is very meaningful, but still got people laugh at this example, and I admit it maybe appear in the wrong situation at that time… because I really don’t know what is happening that time, I CANNOT ACCESS YOUTUBE ARGH ==’’’. Go back to natural, and reborn.

10 Weeks in Penang 27 April 2009 to 3 July 2009

my friends, tian leong and jian yong at TT Vision

Again, 10 weeks in Penang, what had I done during these 10 weeks other than my internship? Every day after working, I eat dinner with my friends from main campus- Jien, Anna, Shi En and Yin Jie. Sometime I will follow to them to their music club and meet with their other friends from there, watch them to play musical instrument. Sometimes we go watch movie at Queenbay, celebrate someone’s birthday, and sit at the seaside at Gurney in the night…

my house in front main campus.. if you mention about 23B, a lot people will know where is it

kitchen, haha. Luckly is for only 10 weeks

ais kacang that I visit the most with my friends

mee... very nice, but need to wait at least 15mins to get it

In the company for my internship, TT Vision, we got four people in a gang, me, Tian Leong, Jien Yong and Shi Ming. Four of us come from the same school but in different course, three of them come from Electronic School. We go lunch at 12pm everyday and take about 45 minutes to have our lunch. After back to company, we play ping-pong and pool. When we are free, 4 of us will sit down and chatting, talking something which is meaningless and bluffing as well, and they teach me drawing, not a professional portray of human or animal, but are those funny and stupid cartoon style drawing. Four of us are the same type of people that is different from other people—our “specifications” are like to play, do the work given but sometimes like to be a slacker too, come to office at 8.30am, go to lunch at 12pm and go back at 5.30pm… our punctuality are always full mark. However, sometimes we still need to pretend hardworking and work ++ 5 minutes more before going back to make the “fact” not too obvious to detect by other. Haha, actually a lot of people in the office doing that, when nothing to do all should pretend to be busy, when got things to do should acting like super busy. The permanent staff at the production line always teach our when you are nothing to do, you can “buat-buat sibuk”, maybe this is their important skills to survive especially in the stage of economical downturn.

in lab 2

jian yong, tian leong, me, jia qun and JJ

outside the factory, last day at TT Vision

4 in a gang...

Em, still got some friends from my hometown that I had spent my time with them when I go back in the weekend, we always go Old Town, sing K… a lot of them going to graduate soon and we know that after they work in other place, we getting less chance to meet each other. Wish all the best for your future ya.

me and chin shan, taking dinner at Queenbay Mall, Penang

chin shan and chin yang.. at Jusco Sebarang Prai

ying hong, chin shan me and chin yang at old town

I go back to hometown 8 out of 10 weeks during my internship in the weekend, once is I go KL secretly without inform my parents and friends, and another 1 is I want to stay at Penang and go out with my friends to attend musical competition. Besides that, I also hope that I can enjoy my last weekend at Penang, enjoy walking in the night market in front of my house. Still remember that my parents hope that I can go back every week, and all family members come to Penang and visit me at that week. We go visit my grandma in the hospital. After that, we go to Pragin Mall. At that time, my mom bought some bread for me, and still remember that my mom said that she decide to buy the bread because the bread is so cute, got cartoon one. She know that I like that, same as what I want when I as a child. So touch, I love you mom, even now I am an adult, but I know you still treat me like a child.


This is my life in this period of 10 weeks… I cannot imagine if I lost of any of them, friends and family. I love you all, always support me when I in blue, and beside me when I am happy.