Today is my birthday 31 July 2010

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link for last year birthday

Today is my birthday, a thousand tons of bless from family, friend and friends, but this makes me feel very lonely in contrast. New environment, new life as I said, and  this is the wish that I made last year. I just refer back the wish I had made last year, and I found that the wish is come true, but I am not really happy for the moment, because I loss myself in the crowd. Once thing I need to always bear in mind is I need myself to become more happy, yes, live happily for the person that I love and the parties that who love and care about me, I know they will worry if I keep on to live like this.

Let make a wish, or wishes. My wish for this year is almost the same, that is all people around me stay happily and nicely, always healthy as well is the most important one. This morning I went to a clinic that far from my house, and after have a lunch alone, I suddenly think of what kind of life I actually want, for now I can tell is, I want a simple live, stay with the person I love, with my family. Maybe someday in the future I bankrupt, but I believe I will happy in this way of life. I got nothing to loss, just start from now I need to more take care of myself, because I found that sometimes when I feel alone, I really not take a good care of myself, skip meal, don’t want to eat, and even didn’t pay full attention on the road will driving. These are very worst, start from now I cannot do this anymore, a lot of people that love me will feel very disappointed if I keep on act like this, sorry to make you all worry, I will become a guai2 boy, listen and obedience. I dream is still the same, I hope that I can have my own baker shop, sell some simple cookies, cake, because I believe that cake a dish that will make you feel happiness and blessedness. This will be a happy life even I am busy in the kitchen.

Yesterday I met someone, the person that rush from busy work and celebrate my early birthday. I am very happy and touched with your action, even the time is very short, but I understand that you do very best in your effort. You told me that you will improving life, this is the most touch phase that I heard, yes, I will do that too… this is life, and I’m alive, improving our life, our family life is the unstoppable ultimate goal that we need to work hard for.

Last, be happy, enjoy the show, pay more attention in work, be more confident… next week is my convocation, final destination for my study life, want to say thousand thank to my parents, my papa mama, thank a lot for giving me this, I knew this is not easy for two of you to walk until this stage, my mum insist to take the family photograph for my convocation, I knew this is not only my certificate, is a certificate and prove for my mama papa, that finally your best life before sunset is coming, not far from here. 

I LOVE U

 

Adapting 25 July 2010

Second week I be here, and finally my motorbike was successfully delivered to me, this indicate that I no need to tumpang my friend’s car for the rest days, since my friend going to resign in very soon. For what I can say is hopefully it didn’t rain for the time I want go to work and the time I want to go back.

Fall in sick a couple days ago, fever and I feel very uncomfortable for that, that why I applied half day MC and took taxi back to my room. I feel so helpless on the way walking to get a taxi in the rush road, under the hot sun, but still need to thank that luckily is not raining day and the taxi pass by me in within 10 mins. When back to my room, I found that I didn’t have food to eat, even I know that this is not good for take the medicine with empty stomach. Until the next day, I bought some bread after I get my motor, no appetite but still need to eat, to provide some energy to recover back faster as possible. 

These are some predicted cases, since I understand my body is weak due to everything, especially with the rapid changes of the pace of life. This is the incident that let me know how important the healthy is meaning for a person especially when you are living alone. 
Yesterday is the happy day, because I met my friend, bought something from the supermarket... this definitely worth more than one or two lines that I can express here. full of orange, yummy2, give me vitamin C, no more running nose

Hopefully tomorrow I can recharge back for the new coming week… yehaa.. give me some courage please… last, want to thank for my parents, sister and brother, I love you all, sometimes I am too stubborn, and makes you all worry, but I didn’t intent to do that, just I sick, I didn’t tell you all, because scare you all worry me. Huggy. 

First week 17 July 2010

First week in PJ, in challenges, a lot of new thing to me, I need to cope all the thing that come to me, and as what I posted last few times, all of these are almost in my expectation. All I can tell is, it is not easy. Maybe I still need some time, and a transport for me to adapt better than now. I trying to make myself more cheerful and think in positively, perhaps this will make all the thing to becomes less painful. Just to know that my bike cannot been shipped to me in this week, and it declares another nightmare week in the following, I am hungry now, starving for food.

First week in working, first week become an engineer, not much special feeling on that, all the thing go smooth and quite comfortable actually. This is the real working environment for me to go through, it is a stressful job, and of course I will try myself the best to take over the challenges. This is the most terrible department in the company, lead my 2 iron ladies that stress everything in fast response and effectiveness. 

“You are new staff from XX department to take place XX right? Your seat is ‘hot seat’ o…”
Someone told me in the office told me this in first few days. 
In short, new life is coming. Thank from my family members, friend and friends for support. Appreciate for it... thank you.

Why I got such feeling again? 11 July 2010

This feeling is as same as the feeling that I have last year during my internship period. I not know why this such feeling come back again to me, maybe the situation for now is same as what I faced last year. I am new to this environment, I hope that I can adapt myself as fast as possible to this environment. I’m scare when I’m alone in the room, or maybe can say as I am scare because I am alone all the way in the city. Today I had spent my time with friend, again asked for help to brought me to the mall and shop to buy some cookies and mattress. I need to tightly control my financial for the month before I can get my first paid. In the evening, I walked alone in my area, with an umbrella and bottle in my bag, just like a people who loss in the city. I tried to find the location of the bus stop, food court.

Tomorrow is my first working day, and my friend told me she wants to resign soon. She told a lot this and that, and as what I posted in the previous post, I had kinda loss my confident to work for a long period in this company. However, I always remind myself not to give up so easily, but it is not easy for me to walk from the start until this stage, I cannot let people that care of me to disappointed as I’m the strawberry generation. 
- Be proactive in working
- Don’t scare to ask
- Don’t scare the troubles , as troubles is unavoidable in life
- Don’t scare people
- Don’t scare to sacrifice your time to learn and ask
- Active learning, jot down notes, incident 

Daddy and mum already called me twice in the day, I know they worry about me, as I’m like a little boy that always make them worry, thank for call me always, and this makes me not feel as lonely here. My dad wants help me to send the motorbike to me, but the other side my friend keep tell me that is so danger to ride motor in this area, I have to tell I had no choice, what I can do is: I will careful.
I really feel so lonely for the moment. I miss, I miss.

Ready to GO 9 July 2010

Ready to go? The feeling is quite calm, but seems like a lot of thing need me to go through bravely. This is the new chapter for me, new phase for me to go. Now I plan to send my motorbike to there and start to contact with the shipment company, but yet need to see their schedule and my available time in PJ.

My friend who working in the same company with me has plans to resign soon. She is currently in the same department with me, and she start to rants almost every time we meet her. This wasn’t a good news for me and this indirectly has much increase my pressure before I join the company. Strong mentality is needed for me to overcome this pressure, and I need to tell myself almost every job is like that. Working is totally different with the time when we study, since we are bonded with huge responsibility especially in those company that involve high volume production rate per day. The lesson can be quite painful if wrong decision is made. I not yet join the department, so I cannot comment more in that, but I hope that I can remember what my mind is thinking current for this moment, remember this and no to say surrender to it, no matter what.

Since I am fresh graduate, should learn thing in an open mind, this is the chance for me to go through harshly. As what my senior told me, go through these kind of challenges when you’re still young is much better that when you face these when you’re old. I have nothing to loss. Saw some friends that they posted some of their working life in FB, so I can almost tell, almost everywhere are the same.
Tomorrow onward there will be a new milestone, it may be a not easy for me a kampung boy to adapt, I need your support.

《茉莉花开》9 July 2010

《茉莉花开》是一部反映一家三代女性的爱情与婚姻的故事，发生在三十年代、五十年代和八十年代，以独特视角展现了二十世纪中国的历史变迁和女人的命运。

　　茉，一个由经营着照相馆的单亲母亲养大的18岁少女，在遇到孟老板后一生的命运发生了改变，她成了明星，同时也怀上了孟老板的小孩，那是上个世纪30年代旧上海的事；茉生下孩子不久就被抛弃了，失去了明星的光彩，她为这个私生女取名叫莉，莉一心要离开这个阴冷的家，嫁给了水泥厂工人邹杰，她决定生个小孩，但她偏偏不能生育，只能从福利院抱了一个女孩，取名叫花，莉对生活仍然极度不满，甚至怀疑自己的丈夫与养女有染，丈夫选择了卧轨自杀，这是上个世纪五六十年代的事；莉精神分裂离家出走了，花找了个男友小杜，在结婚后怀孕不久发现小杜有了外遇，她坚决地提出离婚并把小孩生了下来，这已是上世纪80年代的事……

"Jasmine Women" is reflected that a three generation of feminine love and the marital story, occurs in the 30s, the 50s and the 80s, has unfolded the 20th century China's historical vicissitude and woman's destiny by the unique angle of view.

This is a nice movie to share with, and this should be the first movie that I post in my blog. The director of this movie is Hou Yong and the main actress is ZhangZiyi. When I see this movie, I'm wonder where am I, but I dont care, I know where is my final destination. I borned to be stronger day to day.

Goalsss 7 July 2010

Going to work soon, as the title above, they are many goals that I need to bear in mind for always, without clear mission and goal, people will loss his or her direction along the road. My path of finding the job is like a bike moving on uneven terrain, no too smooth but I treat this as a path that need me to go through, sometimes if everything going too smooth is not a good thing for us to grow, at least now, hopefully I have some little ‘growth’. If for last time, I sure cannot imagine that I have the courage to travel from east to west, from north to south, but did it, there is nothing to be fear unless I fear or fail to myself.
The goal that I had mentioned is not the grandness one, as I didn’t have the ultimate goal for my life yet (kidding la, sure have one, ultimate goal sure won’t tell you here de la ><).

The first goal for sure is I can survive and adapt well in the new environment, working environment and new life environment. This is my first job, of course, excludes others part time job that I worked for last time, here I need to implement what I learn in more than 17 years. This is different from others job last time, this time I need to pay more attention and responsibility in the field, as it is not only the question of like or dislike. The crucial point is how well I can integrate all the knowledge, and applies it in real life.

The second one is manage my financial. For the moment, I hope that I can have at least 50% saving for what I earned. I hope that I will use this portion wisely, for saving or any other investment, or insurance. 50% is kinda high? Just I am still young, no much load that I need to bear with. The other portion will spend as normal as other people, and I want to buy a new bag, some new cloths, watch, diamond, ruby…. ><

The next goal is always be strong, positive, healthy life style. These are the important factors that I need to set in my mind, so that I can have a clear and strong soul to go over challenges without fear or hesitation. Besides that, good attitude in working or life is a must for me.

So tire, stay tuned. I will come back. Just now chat with my coursemate that had went to Singapore to work, the feeling is great, and I told him that I never regret to start work late, and this is the best holiday ever for me as I had found back the meaning of life and the happiness with my hometown friends that I had long forgotten and last, of course the more closely relationship with my lovely family. Bless for … night

‘Yuan Lai Wo hen Qiong’ 4 July 2010

Just come back from a Penang trip 1 week ago with my special friend, this is a nice short trip indeed, thank you and I am very happy with that, maybe this is the last trip that we meet in Penang, but still I hope that we can make some visit again to this city in the future, the memorable place that we had spent for the years. Komtar area

In the coming next day to it, I went to KL again to collect the offer letter from the company, and rush my time to find a room in around PJ area, and finally, I success to get a room in S17. The room cost me 310 bucks for monthly rental fee. Since I am currently not moving in yet, so cannot comment more about the worth or not worth for that, but at least, the room and the house condition as well is far better that the others 3 rooms that I had visited before. Thank you for my friend Miss L to be my driver for the day. KLCC, again.. ><

Cute mouse family

I try to cherish every moment in the week before I go to work, and I treat this as a new chapter or milestone for me to go through, until 60 years old before retirement? Hopefully no. I started to pack some stuff and ask my friend help me to take it to PJ, so that I no need to carry too much thing at the time I travel next week. What my plan is I hope that I can ship my motorbike to the place, so that at least I got my own transport and not to rely too much on other once. 

Just relieve that I am going to bankrupt soon, pay for this one and that one, and buy this one and that one. All is necessary thing, not much I can save for it, the only is try to get the second-hand stuff, or select the cheap one to use for the moment. Mum want to give me some money, and I refused it, I still can survive, don’t worry for that, I promise I will take care of myself in the new environment, that is a new challenge for me to explore, I think I’m ready, maybe I’m not in real, anyway, just go, sometimes think more makes a people can’t enjoy the life, because that is an uncertainty. Good luck for me.