Kitchi Miao is a Monster 27 October 2011

Everyone treat kitchi miao like a monster, finally I completely rupture in the moment, please give me a way to walk through, a momentum to breath.

Decision-made 26 October 2011

I seldom make decision, up from the small decision from decide what we going to have lunch to any big decision that will cause a great move or change of my life. Few big decisions I made before, and today seem I have it another one. It is not difficult to know that I had struggled quite a moment inside myself before the day, and looks back to some small previous incident like what happen to my motorbike last week, I found that myself actually loss of control, cry not only direct to the case happened, but a lot of link crossed together, from my personal problem, family issue and more… cause me to crumble. I’m looking for sense of security, the feeling of home… that I hope that I can have it from…

I’m sorry that I’m too selfish and immature, and my last minutes of hesitation. Way to learn and I promise I will take care of myself in the world that I have worry with. Feeling loss, loss of centre of gravity… I cannot concentrate for the moment.

I will learn to become a better one, but before I adjust and find back myself, it is not fair to anyone. Take a break for myself and you, I guess I will very soon come out from there, … Hug and help me to take a good care of yourself, thank you.

Motorbike 23 October 2011

Last few days, raining heavily and makes the soil at the place I park my motorbike becomes loose and my motorbike fell down for two times. Front parts cracked, and this makes me think back a lot of thing about this motorbike. This motorbike was bought by my lovely father to me when I in form 4, that is about 9 years ago. Before I got my motorbike, I take school bus to the school, and I still remember I don’t like to take the school bus because of few reasons.

Even this is only a motorbike, but this take few months saving from my parents, and my father is just a little contractor, with less than 2k income per month, to support five in the family, just wonder how can my parents do that, even now my first salary after graduate is greater than it, but I cannot even give more money to my parents every month, salute to my parents and I knew that is not easy for the way. I love my family, I love it because of it be.

My financial 18 October 2011

With the title: My Financial, recently I had involved myself actively in stock game, earning first and losing at last, a lot lesson learnt, and I enjoy the game. Need to bear in mind that there are certain rules that need always be my mind, that is always invest with your extra money, never ever use the money that need to support our daily life to invest, em… no, that is consider gambling.

Going to have my car soon, a little car that will cause me spend out all my saving. That is not an easy decision made; I’m ready with the coming financial plan… finger crossed. Angry Bird

Doremon cake, 38 bucks

My reminder 2 October 2011

Again the same thing happening and the problem of myself on keep asking I know it is very terrible. I know that is not fair to you, if I didn’t ask and make the thing clear, my mind cannot let it goes, and so I decided to ask. This is eating the relationship once it comes out, I knew this need a couple of time to build back the eaten one. Again with your very patient, I feel of my bad and really feel that is not fair to you. Sorry and thanks for your toleration. Keep the thing short and if you read this… This is my reminder to always remind myself to be a better one, and yet remain cute and pure always. Huggy.

Recently I am pretty active in stock market, the few things to remind myself is always need to be careful. Still got a lot of thing to learn, always rational is needed. Good luck for myself.