Flip flop Trend 19 September 2010

Flip flop trend of feeling now existing in my mind. I not know what I can do to overcome this feeling, sometimes it very worst, sometimes it is okay, but it never been well, unless it is holiday. I know this is kinda come from my attitude problem, and affected by people around me in the group. I’m helpless, try to survive, I believe this is the transition period, and I will finally adapt to it, but the adapting process can be quite painful for me until sometimes I got a very strong intend to give up, but after calm down, I feel that it is still okay for all. For this moment I again want to express special thanks to my very special friend, always give me support, and change all my negative to positive, or at least neutral it. No point to keep complaint and ranting, better keep my mind calm and do what I can. – simple philosophy, but hard to implement… haha.

Yesterday got chat with my coursemate, he also almost facing the same problem with me, and again I understand this is the different between study and working. Some resign in the first day working also got, some work happily. I know I am not the only one facing the problem, just can categories in a bit unlucky one, but look from other perspective, we are the lucky one because we encounter it in the earliest of the working life, much more better if we only face it when we are nearly retire.

Stop to talking regarding work.

This week I got plan to go back home, my sweet home that I miss it so much, the place that I can feel that I am protected. I know I’m the manja one, especially when facing something unhappy, haha. I plan to take one day leave to go back, it is not worth for me to go back for 2 days, minus the minor one, only left one day.my moon cake, you told me it is a mini one

Today I received a moon cake, I keep it in refrigerator already, yum2. Thanks a lot. Every time meet you I also feel that you are very knowledgeable. Haha, ganbate ya. 

Thank you 12 September 2010

I had leaved this blog for almost a month, and now I need to continue my little space. The reason for this post is I want to appreciate special thank to my special one. Recently I become down due to different type of stress that pressing me. Fortunately, there are always somebody with their endless support. I feel very touch. I can overcome a lot of thing when you give me scourge, scourge for me to continue the tough one. Sometimes just feel that it is not easy, but I know what should I do. I know that all the good thing are waiting for us, at least now we are more close in distance, target destination, and soon will work for our same target. This is the last semester for somebody, and you told me all your plans are queuing in line with the timeframe. I am also glad to listen to that; I know these are your target for these few years. I know you tire, you always is my model, Rambo ^^

The feeling coming back again, but I know it is normal. 12 September 2010

Mid of September already, had been here for 2 months, a lot of thing happen recently, and I had stressed up by the tone of workload, company inter-personal issue… many and many. It can be easily detect out from my face, and I start to scare going to work every day, anxious and feel helpless. Now I feel like I need to have a new mind set, for doing everything. After calm down in these 3 days, I know the first thing I need to do is to overcome the feeling of “fear”. Don’t easy get panic when the trouble is happening, just do it as you can, if it is over myself capability, and I cannot solve it, I will ask for guidance from senior. The problem is they are not so helpful, and I feel very suffer when I’m in the middle of 2 difference parties.

Ya, this seem is a ‘rant’ blog for me, allow me to rant it out. I just don’t like:

You all say all is about common sense. The flow of the work is too subjective, you all please don’t tell me this is common sense, I will feel more comfortable if you all tell me that is about experiences. Please guide me more with more patients.

Tomato manager please guide me la, you are suppose be my shield, not in versa vice. When I ask you for advice, I don’t like you tell me you don’t know, and ask me to ask other people with your unpleasant voice. Be brave a bit.

Haiz, not good to rant too much, I know this is just a small portion of the troubles I facing, there are more and more queuing behind. The only one I can advise myself is pay more attention and patient, see and go through for a few months before give up, because I believe when I overcome all of this, my experience will teach me well. Even I try a new job, new challenges will come to me too. Now, take this challenges in WD, after overcome this tough one, I will become tough too indeed. Give myself another 3 months, let say it is not suitable for me, just go with what I wish to do.

Anyway, thanks for this job, because now I realize that a lot of thing is not so important, and now I more cherish everything I have, especially moment with the love one, family, friends. Priceless. Gogogo, I support myself. It is not easy for you to move to KL, don’t give up. Yeah2