The feeling coming back again, but I know it is normal. 12 September 2010

Mid of September already, had been here for 2 months, a lot of thing happen recently, and I had stressed up by the tone of workload, company inter-personal issue… many and many. It can be easily detect out from my face, and I start to scare going to work every day, anxious and feel helpless. Now I feel like I need to have a new mind set, for doing everything. After calm down in these 3 days, I know the first thing I need to do is to overcome the feeling of “fear”. Don’t easy get panic when the trouble is happening, just do it as you can, if it is over myself capability, and I cannot solve it, I will ask for guidance from senior. The problem is they are not so helpful, and I feel very suffer when I’m in the middle of 2 difference parties.

Ya, this seem is a ‘rant’ blog for me, allow me to rant it out. I just don’t like:

You all say all is about common sense. The flow of the work is too subjective, you all please don’t tell me this is common sense, I will feel more comfortable if you all tell me that is about experiences. Please guide me more with more patients.

Tomato manager please guide me la, you are suppose be my shield, not in versa vice. When I ask you for advice, I don’t like you tell me you don’t know, and ask me to ask other people with your unpleasant voice. Be brave a bit.

Haiz, not good to rant too much, I know this is just a small portion of the troubles I facing, there are more and more queuing behind. The only one I can advise myself is pay more attention and patient, see and go through for a few months before give up, because I believe when I overcome all of this, my experience will teach me well. Even I try a new job, new challenges will come to me too. Now, take this challenges in WD, after overcome this tough one, I will become tough too indeed. Give myself another 3 months, let say it is not suitable for me, just go with what I wish to do.

Anyway, thanks for this job, because now I realize that a lot of thing is not so important, and now I more cherish everything I have, especially moment with the love one, family, friends. Priceless. Gogogo, I support myself. It is not easy for you to move to KL, don’t give up. Yeah2