Before and After 6 September 2009

1 week before, still remember that I am waiting for 1 important phone call. I started to wait after my dinner in room, but decided to wait it outside, because there is a high contrast between the mood of my roommates and mine and his friends in my room. Furthermore, I am too tension already, need to walk out from this ‘’room’’. Take a walk around my hostel, and seem like it didn’t help me a lot, and I know that I need to go further, take my bike and go to the old place again. Once I reach there, I start to sit on the floor, and do what I want to release my mind after being stress up with all the things in that week. After I calm down, I start to think about why there is such empty concrete space at here with surrounding with a big field and lake. Then I slow down my footsteps, and there is some big words printed on the concrete area. Go through 1 by 1, ‘REDEC USM’…… and this makes me realizes that we can only see and notice the things around us clearly with a peacefully mind and slow pace of life style. The words on the floor is big, human is small and tiny, so we can’t see the words, only with peaceful mind, you can see it. My phone starts to ring at around 11pm…

1 week after that, I know what should I do and what mistakes had I done before, I readjust back my thinking style and start enjoy my life with smile, let smile conquer my life. There are some important things that I should do in order to let smile conquer my life, I list them out and let them become my reminder.

1. 1. Don’t let emotion take control

2. 2. Heal old wound

3. 3. Believe

4. 4. Cherish

See it, take it, face it, solve it and leave it. 5 steps, it is simple. Have a nice day ^^.

10˚C 29 August 2009

Yesterday woke up at the early morning, my mind was blanked, and a past memory came in to my mind:

This happened when I was young. Still remember that during one of the semester exam in primary school, I peep on my friend exam paper on my right side and this being caught by the examiner. The examiner without telling me anything, ask me to carry my chair and exam paper, sit on the floor in front of the classroom and continue to answer the paper with his unpleasant face. I do not know what happen that time, still wonder why the teacher want to do that, I had no idea, what can I do that time is continue to do my exam paper. Until the bell rang, and all the papers are collected, the teacher throws out a word: “CHEATING!” and this follows by all pupil in the class looking at me, and some even laugh on me. Can give me a chance to explain? My explanation that time is I peep on that just I am curious about until which pages my friend done if compare with me at that time, because I want to know how my friend (brilliant student) do that in the exam. The teacher reply me if he is a 3 years old child, maybe he will believe what I am saying, and said that I should pray, because he didn’t manage to bring me to discipline teacher. After the teacher go out from the class, I stand up and take back my chair to my original seat.

I am standard 4 at that time, only 10 years old. Now I realize the reason why it is difficult or even impossible for teacher to believe me at that time. I didn’t plan to cheat in the exam, even though I am the top 10 students who ranked from the last in the class. I didn’t cry at that time, because I don’t like the teacher.

No title 27 August 2009

I spent more than 5 minutes to think about the title of this blog, and finally, I name it as ‘No Title’. Too many things happen in this week, it is too complex for me to describe it, and I seem like a genius, genius to create a lot of problems, since I was young… Nobody will understand me, nobody can talk to me, give some guidance to me. Some friends start to think that why I am so weird this week, get close to me and ask me whether need help or not, they can lend me their ears. I am glad to know that, appreciate for that.

Went to my brother room and borrow formal wear for presentation, but I not really need it, because my lecture allow me to present in normal wear. Called mama, wish for her birthday and ask her to prepare blanket and toothpaste for my brother to bring it to me next week, because I not listen to mama last time to replace my current worn-out blanket. Keep raining this few days, so cold, dai sei… I just want go to see my brother and talk to him, but the conversation end up with some funny joke from him; just want to call and listen to my papa mama’s voice, but it end up with: why don’t want follow brother go back this week? busy with homework? Your sister said that……

if you all can read my mind, will you all support me?

Sometimes, silent is a best language, but sometimes it can be a silent weapon to kill someone who love and care about you. I going to collapse soon, feel like want to give up, but I will control, because of I really care and love.

This is first time I have this feeling, who can I talk to? Still raining outside, still can listen to the rhythm of the pouring rain, and the rhythm of snore from my roommate… the mini fan still on the table, the solar power toy keep on nodding his head to me, he agree and observing what I am doing.. :) but my star refuse to shine, I am sorry.

I AM SO LUCKY 16 AUGUST 2009

Don’t know why, but feel that I am so lucky and I am glad to be in this stage of life… A lot of my friends graduated at last week, and still got a lot friends going to graduate soon in the second half of this year. Suddenly think of I also going to graduate soon, 6 + 5 + 2 + 4 total 17 years of study which is not included for kindergarten period had really tire up myself, and this makes me seem like have no energy to going for further studies after I graduate. I had no any plan for my future before that, and now I realize that this is the time for me to plan for my future. I know my own weaknesses and plan to strengthen myself by reading some other books and hopefully these will help me in the future.

Haha, the sound kinda seem like I want to ignore my studies for my final year? Haha, not actually, but now I feel that I am not allow to spend too much time on my studies, because there are a lot things that had been ignored by me in the last 16 years. I should catch out them, and try to do some compensate on that. This action is not consider as I am slowing down my momentum to thrust at the end-point on my studies life, but it is a way for me to plan and build my own runway which has more even terrain, so that it allow me to fly further and longer.

As I stated above, I am so lucky. Sometimes, I think that what makes a people feel that he or she is lucky, fate? I am no comment on that, but I know that the way of thinking will directly affect your luck. I will appreciate everything that people done for me, even for a small thing I will appreciate it. It is very simple, but simple doesn’t mean that it is easy to implement. Sometimes, we should look back the past because there is the way we find back our naivete after being contaminant by the dark, but we should remember that there is no tendency to let the past experiences get in way of present happiness, it should be just a guide. Finally, thank you for all my family and friends, all of you bring luck to me.

Remember when you got your first bike and couldn't wait to ride it like all of the other big kids but you kept falling and falling until one day you gave up and ran inside, teary-eyed, losing all hope? You vowed to never pick up that two wheeled bandit again. You liked to ride, but it was all just too painful. Your mom wiped your tears and looked into your eyes, whispering, "Don't worry my dear, practice makes perfect. When you fall, just pick yourself back up, relax, take a deep breathe and ride, ride again!"

I found that this is very meaningful, but still got people laugh at this example, and I admit it maybe appear in the wrong situation at that time… because I really don’t know what is happening that time, I CANNOT ACCESS YOUTUBE ARGH ==’’’. Go back to natural, and reborn.

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New Baby ... wakaka ^^ 31 July 2009

Em, today is a new chapter of my life again: my 23rd birthday. School had been closed for 1 week from 29 July to 5 August due to the dispread of H1N1 disease in my school. So, I miss out the celebration with my course mates and still remember that I celebrated my birthday when I was in first year at here with course mates and seniors at the orientation week in university. a lot student gather at cafe and waiting for temperature test in the early morning before we are allow to go back

23 years old, I know I am not a young boy anymore, slightly far out of the range of ages for a teenager (really slightly?), but sometimes I still acting like a child, immature enough when I facing with some problem.

you and me .. roti

There are so many things happened on the past 1 year especially in the last 3 months when I start my industrial training in Penang island. I learned to be more independent. The highlight of the year?? Em, really need me to recall back what I had done in last year. The change on me is now I always tend to enjoy my own life, more cherish everything I have. Again, the most important thing is I started to be myself in this year, I accept everything that make me different from others, this is not a easy decision for me
, I had took several year from being doubt, depress until the stage of now, which is realize it and accept it. I need courage, this is just an opening and even I had fallen down, and of course, I cried, haha. I know I can do it, I am confident on that.

my birthday present, T shirt.. tq o ^^

This year is my final year for my university life, soon I will graduate and plan to have a job in KL, actualize the promise that I promised, and hope that my family will support me, allow me to do and decide what kind of path I going to go through in the future. Papa and Mama, I know what I am doing, I will try my best to be your good son, hopefully bring some easy life for family soon after I graduated. I hope that I can be the person that didn’t stands on the shoulder of anyone or be somebody’s load, inversely, be more independent.

my mini usb fan, which i ''took" from my sister... wakakak.. it is not consider as a birthday gift o, you owe me

my green mouse, green solar power toy (birthday gift from friend) and my clock on my desk, i put them together with the mini usb fan

The wish for this year is almost same like previous year, that is everyone beside me stay healthy and happily, with this I think all of us can take and overcome all the challenges. Thank you for family and friends. Thank you for your wish and bless for my birthday and yr gift as well. I believe that all of that will bring me some extra luck, even though I know that I am lucky enough in real.

bless from friends... some of my uni friends said want to celebrate with me, now H1N1 all cepat lari already, Bank Islam and hotlink even better, got sent me a birthday message. you all bo sim

That day, I also join the annual concert from main campus, 游子吟. The show was nice, well done friends! Thank you for inviting me to join this concert and I can felt your passion from the start to the end in this 3 months of preparation. I will come and join you all if I got time next year.

like this shoot

closing ceremony, 2 out of 6 of the singers are my friends, Jien and Anna

bye bye, hopefully can see you all next year. Good job, friends.

10 Weeks in Penang 27 April 2009 to 3 July 2009

my friends, tian leong and jian yong at TT Vision

Again, 10 weeks in Penang, what had I done during these 10 weeks other than my internship? Every day after working, I eat dinner with my friends from main campus- Jien, Anna, Shi En and Yin Jie. Sometime I will follow to them to their music club and meet with their other friends from there, watch them to play musical instrument. Sometimes we go watch movie at Queenbay, celebrate someone’s birthday, and sit at the seaside at Gurney in the night…

my house in front main campus.. if you mention about 23B, a lot people will know where is it

kitchen, haha. Luckly is for only 10 weeks

ais kacang that I visit the most with my friends

mee... very nice, but need to wait at least 15mins to get it

In the company for my internship, TT Vision, we got four people in a gang, me, Tian Leong, Jien Yong and Shi Ming. Four of us come from the same school but in different course, three of them come from Electronic School. We go lunch at 12pm everyday and take about 45 minutes to have our lunch. After back to company, we play ping-pong and pool. When we are free, 4 of us will sit down and chatting, talking something which is meaningless and bluffing as well, and they teach me drawing, not a professional portray of human or animal, but are those funny and stupid cartoon style drawing. Four of us are the same type of people that is different from other people—our “specifications” are like to play, do the work given but sometimes like to be a slacker too, come to office at 8.30am, go to lunch at 12pm and go back at 5.30pm… our punctuality are always full mark. However, sometimes we still need to pretend hardworking and work ++ 5 minutes more before going back to make the “fact” not too obvious to detect by other. Haha, actually a lot of people in the office doing that, when nothing to do all should pretend to be busy, when got things to do should acting like super busy. The permanent staff at the production line always teach our when you are nothing to do, you can “buat-buat sibuk”, maybe this is their important skills to survive especially in the stage of economical downturn.

in lab 2

jian yong, tian leong, me, jia qun and JJ

outside the factory, last day at TT Vision

4 in a gang...

Em, still got some friends from my hometown that I had spent my time with them when I go back in the weekend, we always go Old Town, sing K… a lot of them going to graduate soon and we know that after they work in other place, we getting less chance to meet each other. Wish all the best for your future ya.

me and chin shan, taking dinner at Queenbay Mall, Penang

chin shan and chin yang.. at Jusco Sebarang Prai

ying hong, chin shan me and chin yang at old town

I go back to hometown 8 out of 10 weeks during my internship in the weekend, once is I go KL secretly without inform my parents and friends, and another 1 is I want to stay at Penang and go out with my friends to attend musical competition. Besides that, I also hope that I can enjoy my last weekend at Penang, enjoy walking in the night market in front of my house. Still remember that my parents hope that I can go back every week, and all family members come to Penang and visit me at that week. We go visit my grandma in the hospital. After that, we go to Pragin Mall. At that time, my mom bought some bread for me, and still remember that my mom said that she decide to buy the bread because the bread is so cute, got cartoon one. She know that I like that, same as what I want when I as a child. So touch, I love you mom, even now I am an adult, but I know you still treat me like a child.


This is my life in this period of 10 weeks… I cannot imagine if I lost of any of them, friends and family. I love you all, always support me when I in blue, and beside me when I am happy.