When I did it wrong-Again 10 August 2011

I did it wrong again. I getting loss and falling into the damp, I need you help to help me. Strong willingness to overcome the devil in my body is extremely needed. I hard to do it alone, but I must do it alone because nobody will know more that myself, and the final decision is still falling on myself.

Promise myself from now will spend more time on healthy activity, know more new friends and expend my eyes sight, and wash out the dirty inherent part. That is the way of getting myself freedom and conscience stays untainted, from today onwards…

But, I need your help, very sorry.

Happy Birthday, 25th .........31 July 31, 2011

Autodesk Seminar
29^th July, is my first event in Mont Kiara, seminar for Autodesk. After busy for one month, finally it is over. It is not too bad for the first time and all the thing can consider goes smooth as we planned, even in the middle of the way we facing some challenges, and still manage to overcome it, finally. At the same night, we went for farewell dinner for our colleagues, Anna. Went to Waterlily, Indonesian food, and the second round at Sunway Giza, a pub. This consider as my first time to drink, only 2 small glasses, not yet drunk, but I not really like the taste of the beer, but I like the environment, relax and lively, just experience it for the first time. Full House in Sunway Giza

The next day, my friends, PC, YC, CY and JM help me to celebrate my birthday at The Curve, sing k. Another very relax and joyful moment, with my friends that well known of me, the feeling is touch and thanks a lot especially for PC that come from very far away, purposely for the celebration. Friendship forever.

At the same night, went to my friend house, brought me to Putrajaya for the night scene there, my very first time to be there, is a nice place, simple, quiet and enjoy the silent of the night on the bright. The journey is quite long, I enjoy the ride with you to get loss in the middle way, turn here and there, if alone there I will scare, but with you it turn very fun. This is the first time I saw your daddy, I knew even this is just a small thing for other, but is a great step forward. Even didn’t receive any present, but this is the best birthday I had ever until now. But at last, I got a funny colourful bear to keep. I will upload the photo tomorrow. :P

funny bear

This is life. Pay a little bit patient with it, enjoy the breath. My wish for the year, same, my family and all people around me always stay happily, healthy and ‘ping an’.

In Redbox

I am getting older 23 July 2011

Again, about 1 month I leave here after my last post for Genting trip. Start to become busy for my work, getting stress with it and get sick for few times recently. Last few days my stomach pain, that make me think of the scene in Penang for internship last 2 years. The feeling at the moment is very helpless, and start to think of where can I get a doctor in the midnight, start to worry because the painfulness of it I can rate it up to 4 stars (with 5 is the max). If I in home, I will knock my parents’ and my father will send me to clinic, even with motorbike in the midnight, yes, my father did it before. He is the most powerful father in the world, or my world.

My mood and feeling is on and off recently. Sometimes really got think to give up, or even talk with this topic with you, but when the time I see you, all the question or blame will turn null, turn to feel that why I cannot be more considerate and so on. Sometimes I got my own difficulties, and I know yours too. Things we seeing is different even I said I understand yours, but it still is from my angle. Weekend is quite terrible for me if you say you not free for the week. The feeling is like need to wait for another 7 days, stay in the room will let me feel lonely. If you can notice it, you will found that I start to go out for movie alone in weekend. Maybe I need to adapt in faster pace for independent.

Is all between toleration and complaint. 2 of these one is like a demon and another one is like an angel in my body. When the power of one is overcome the other, my mood shift. Sometimes I care too, 2 plus years, what else can I do for it? Even our first trip in next time I still vague whether you able to make it or not. I not sure you will read my blog or not, I know I should give you more time, but I really need to settle down. I’m not a perfect one, I’m getting older.

Last, dedicate this song to who visit my blog. 因为爱情， Because of Love

1st outing- Genting, sweet home 11 Jun 2011

First outing, trip to genting with total about 20 of us from 3 gangs, Penang, KL and Singapore gang. Is a nice trip even all of us almost 1 year didn’t meet after the our convocation in last year August, but surprisingly the feeling is still there, making fun and crazy like what we did in campus last time. I call it surprisingly because it is quite easy for me to get someone to unfamiliar even we are closed before, but this time the feeling is good. Thanks for the trip and this at least paint some colour to our boring life.

Crazy one remind crazy, quiet one remain quiet… not much different. Feeling sad to know that one of my best friend start to smoke because of socialize, and this is what we didn’t hope to see it. Update each other what there are currently doing and how was their life over the year… all the best to my friends there in their career and see you all next year, for the moment plan to get it in Pulau Tioman or somewhere in island.

Outstation to Penang for one week, exhibition in Pisa. This time I start to enjoy the trip, and getting closer my colleagues, eat all the nice food in Penang, even I’m from somewhere not far from the Penang island, but also go crazy like them. Hopefully the feeling will continue and I can adapt more better than before. Before check out

After the outstation, going back to hometown. My very cute mum still keep some ‘bachang’ for me, and go out for father day dinner, with my bro new car, again the nice and warm family day. I like the feeling now, not know whether is because of I seldom go back, I feel that the environment of my home becomes more warmth and sweet, no more quarrelling from bro and sister, no more nagging from mum and hot temper from daddy… the feeling is like everyday on CNY, haha.

My first FLY 21 May 2011

Last week, 15 May, my first fly, first step out to Philippine, Manila- Cebu. That is my first outstation trip with my new colleagues after one week I joined my new company. It is too fast for me to adapt everything, the environment and the people, I get nervous a night before fly, lost of the sense of security. our room's living room

scene from our hotel

the water park in the resort a nice path in resort

Thanks for the one sent me to airport and make me feel that at least there is someone accompany me to get there in the place that I’m not familiar too, and last give me some courage and calm me down. Thanks. the local bus, this is the nice one le, other in town a bit old >< place for our Gala Dinner on the beach

4 days over there, is a open-eyes trip for me, a lot that I never tried and seen before. The luxury hotel, the beautiful private beach, the food… there is a big gap between the world in our resort (Imperial Palace) with outside. Cebu, is the second largest city in Philippine, however we still can see a lot of area there still undeveloped, and feel very unsafe while go out from the resort. The gap of rich and poor is large, because in the shopping mall in Manila or Cebu, you still can see some local people spend there, the thing there totally not cheap at all, is same as KL price, one meal in shopping mall food court cost you around RM 8 to 10 after converting to RM (RM 7.3 = 100 Peso). beach

Know a lot of people there, but seem like I am too novice there. Before that my colleague tell me that he want to change the room with me because I been arranged to stay with other unknown people in the room, and that time I still wonder why I cannot. Now I realize that, I really too young, naïve… 25 years old is not young anymore, but it is if compare to others relatively, oldest one can up to nearly 70 years old. I admire the people there, all with nice background, achievement, speak well and dress smart. I choose to be quiet all the time, no knowledge no talk… >< they drink and smoke, I drink mango juice, and watch cartoon in the room.

Cebu island from the plane

Bought some souvenir for my brother and sister, and some famous popcorn in Philippine, Chef Tony. in Manila

Thanks for the one who buy me the Mickey Mouse t-shirts for the special May day.
Yesterday I get my new laptop from company, need to start my new leap from here, for the moment I’m satisfy with the current job.

Labour Day 2 May 2011

Labour day holiday, and tomorrow is the new day in my new company. Mind is a bit blank and calm. This is a quite interesting job if based on my impression during the time I attended the interview. Is a small company and it properly with around 20 staffs in that, that is totally different compare to WD. Is a small circle and perhaps there is more enjoyable working style with all the colleagues there. 

My department is newly formed with a team of 3 included me. It act as a pioneer team to penetrate the Autodesk market. The potential is there and I hope I can stay for longer time here, perhaps better grows for my career. Passion and enthusiasm are extremely important for me to success in my career. Expending my networking is crucial too, no more passive in work, proactive is what I need myself to be.

First day of working is the best day to ‘shape’ my own subsequence days characteristic. Gambate and good luck for me in new career.. phew. Thank for the watch and I will wear it in the new day, and days.  

Finally, I leave WD 23 April 2011

The place that I always go there for 'Relax'

Long time didn’t post my blog here, and finally I leave WD, my first formal job after I graduate. My last day is on 21 April, a lot of thing was flashing back in my mind, from the first day I receive the interview called, until the very uneasy way I travel from Penang to here, find my room, get my motorbike… to get scolded, crying and tension like hell, everything at the moment can becomes a great memory for me, even that time it feel suck. Define back what is the life you want, and I found human always don’t know what we actually want. Leaving WD is my choice, even for the moment I can adapt myself quite well in the environment and with the people, but still feeling that is not a suitable place for me to grow, since I will become more and more defensive and demotivated in the process of the big organization as everyone are trying to use their own way to survive in the harsh environment. Is the time for me to leave, and hope that is a good start for me in the new company. Special moment spent with my colleagues, Sc Lim, Jess, Tessa, and my boss Lau that spend a lot of effort to guide me from nothing to little bit something. Cheah, Ng, Yip, Fiza, Lim from relab, and our technician team, always spend our nice time there and making fun even we are in trouble and this make me understand that enjoy yourself in any situation is very important. More than 10 peoples, all with different characteristic and unique girls team. Last, Chin Yin, Tay and Daphane that already resign. I learn a lot from WD, and I never regret to join this organization. Goodbye and all the best for my colleagues there. Keep on touch. Happy Pet family.. not related with this post :P Doremon for someone who always sick :)