Again, about 1 month I leave here after my last post for Genting trip. Start to become busy for my work, getting stress with it and get sick for few times recently. Last few days my stomach pain, that make me think of the scene in Penang for internship last 2 years. The feeling at the moment is very helpless, and start to think of where can I get a doctor in the midnight, start to worry because the painfulness of it I can rate it up to 4 stars (with 5 is the max). If I in home, I will knock my parents’ and my father will send me to clinic, even with motorbike in the midnight, yes, my father did it before. He is the most powerful father in the world, or my world.
My mood and feeling is on and off recently. Sometimes really got think to give up, or even talk with this topic with you, but when the time I see you, all the question or blame will turn null, turn to feel that why I cannot be more considerate and so on. Sometimes I got my own difficulties, and I know yours too. Things we seeing is different even I said I understand yours, but it still is from my angle. Weekend is quite terrible for me if you say you not free for the week. The feeling is like need to wait for another 7 days, stay in the room will let me feel lonely. If you can notice it, you will found that I start to go out for movie alone in weekend. Maybe I need to adapt in faster pace for independent.
Is all between toleration and complaint. 2 of these one is like a demon and another one is like an angel in my body. When the power of one is overcome the other, my mood shift. Sometimes I care too, 2 plus years, what else can I do for it? Even our first trip in next time I still vague whether you able to make it or not. I not sure you will read my blog or not, I know I should give you more time, but I really need to settle down. I’m not a perfect one, I’m getting older.
Last, dedicate this song to who visit my blog. 因为爱情， Because of Love
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