End and start 25 April 2010

This week is considered as an end and the start of the same time for my journey. I had finished my last paper on 22 April, and this declares the end of the journey that my 19 years study life before I go further. The mood that cannot be tell, it suppose be happy but we not feeling as happy as expected for the moment we wait for decade. Cherish the every single moment with coursemates and friends seem becomes the only activities that we do for all the time after the exam, because we are too free, is FREE. Playing games, chatting, having lunch, dinner together… and last, cycle to waterfall Batu Hampar in Kedah, total 6 of us, break my own cycling record, almost 50km… yahoo…

Suddenly no mood to blog… good night

Since when I become like this? 19 April 2010

Today is the due date for us to submit the FYP, but I had submitted my FYP thesis early because I want to attend the job fair in KL and an interview in PJ. Charlie bug bite me, a lot of wound and scar on my body, it is pain especially when the time I want to bath and wipe my body.

Vague, I am loss in the middle of the road before I graduate. I work hard always, but at last I am standing alone here, that is a bit cruel for me, but this is good for myself? Maybe it is the answer if I see it in rational point of view. Start from convincing myself, to everyone around me, without a single valid reason, but a lot question mark on you, you and yours mind. Thank you for those not asking too much and decided to support me.

Smile to myself, smile to you. Sad to myself, but I don’t show you.

Brought a lot of things for the trip last weekend, and seems that the luxury mall and street are not suitable for me, people looking at me, maybe my face got something. I don’t feel shame, because I just be myself, but I still searching the place that can accommodate me. 3 nights with 3 different place I stayed, searching a shelter in the rain, an old telephone booth, feel lucky, but the strong wind blow the rain to me, asking for help, nervous and try to escape. At last, I smile, try to relax, no point for me to get nervous, wet ma wet lu, why so care about it. I had forgotten how many bus, train and taxi I had taken, all place, location and even name is new to me. I not know where it comes all the courage, because I am timid all the time, since when a little kampung boy becomes like this, maybe there is a mark, just I not aware. 

Still looking for the answer from the company, friend said I didn’t it well, but the competitor got experience, I loss to experience. Haha, there is no such thing, I admit I still got a lot to improve, but at least thank you for your support, maybe there is still a chance for me before I get the formal answer from them. Eh? What I am persist in? Helo? Don’t ask me, I don’t know. 

better man, from robbie william

Busy. Attending farewell dinner 7 April 2010

snapshot with Prof,  MM

The smell of graduation is all around the air, and today we had finished our last class in these four years, no more class for me to attend anymore, and just left the FYP still in the progress. This remember that I don’t like go to the school when I was young, and I think this is the end of my school life, if I didn’t plan to move further. I believe that life is a journey, no a destination, keep on moving and enjoy what you having now, there is no such thing that I want to finish this one before I cannot continue that one (only applicable for long time planning, :P). happy family

me, junior, and senior

3 of us, CY and Jimmy

As the title above, we had busy with attending farewell dinner, from our juniors, and graduated senior as well that met in Autocity as usual. We had very big family, the biggest one in this course due to some special reasonsss, total 11 of us, plus 4 graduated senior, and not least, 2 of their girlfriends. First time having dinner in Swensen, that consider as a very high class already, because the ice-cream is so expensive, my pocket not allow the to eat that… emm, just having a set dinner at there…yum2, very experience with all the juniors and seniors, chat and laugh, I love this family. 

After that, went for second round, Tao bar, drink wine, is wine. That is a not cheap wine and we it around 10 of us for 1 bottle. The wine is apple favored, quite nice and need to mix with 7up. The ratio of the mix depend on individual’s favor, and of course I need to mix up at least 1 to 8… don’t know how to explain, and this is the first time I drink, yea is first time. Emm, didn’t drunk at all :P. the environment is so nice, and enjoying live singing. Once a while going to this place with close friends is fun. in Tao, wine :P cheer

For the mean time, I still need to complete my FYP, due in 19 April and will going to KL next weekend. The week after that is my final paper on 22 April… ganbate, for all :)

Home 14-30 March 2010

Went back to home this weekend because long time I did not go back home already. The journey is long and tough, haha, why tough? Because I am sick with the public transport in SP, the bus station that had ‘registered’ under UNESCO, raining even make the condition more worse that cannot be imagine. That is hardly for us to survive in SP if without your own transport, at least I have a motorbike :) luckyYC's birthday
 Recently I had busy with my FYP and project with Motorola, and both of that need to due in end of this month. Next month onward will be start my exam week and it expected to be a honey month because I only have one subject in the final exam, hopefully… and that is the end of my study life for this moment, or consider as a break for me before I continue to move further. 

Next month I must more aggressive in job finding and hope can hear the news of the company to call me for interview. So far still haven’t receive any reply from them, almost 20 companies that I applied, not even get one that call me for interview, sigh, that is not easy, it is tough but must. Next month in the mid of the month have one career fair that will be held in Mid Valley for 3 days, I hope that I can have chance to attend and the problem now seems is I need to solve my accommodation issue for these 3 days. Tomorrow should be another boring day in Motorola… huhuh… bye2

Feel like quite lazy to continue, recently had busy with FYP, project from Motorola, and fortunately all is over and I back to ‘free’ mood again.

Yesterday 28 march, I had attended a talk in SP Inn with 2 friends from Uni. That is a very good talk and it had trigger me to ‘venture’ myself to everywhere that I can. I am not as free as other, but I wonder what is the thing that let me feel that there is a restriction for me. Family? Friend? Or maybe is my own problem, timid. This thing keeps on running in my mind after that and especially for me that in the junction now.

 When reach home, I have a conversation with these 2 friends, regarding what is your opinion after listening to this talk… we cannot get a pretty answer that to satisfy all parties, but at least we had learn to ‘open’ our mind, and always there is an opportunity. But seems it finally realize us that: if you want to success in life, mean that a wonderful life that worth for you and other people to mirror it, you should keep on moving, let down very thing and start from zero.

“U stand on the mountain, and if u feel that the mountain in the opposite of u look nicer, the only way for u is to move down from the current mountain, and move towards it.”

 “when facing trouble, people will ask that: is that I have made a wrong decision? And then move to other alternative in the midway. Y? bcs we got too much choices, and this is the barrier to block u to success”. 

“Never regret after u make a decision, keep move it.”

“I use what I have, to exchange what I need.”

“wish to increase satisfaction? Get direct feedback, take a challenge that is not too hard, but not too difficult… clear mind set, goal and objectives.”

“I step out from the origin, bcs I will to get back to origin… someday”

“u should leave down everything in the sunset of life, except -memories. So, always be a better man.” 

Translated my ah ken, from Chinese to English. Pardon me, sure a lot of problems in the sentence, and ‘ugly-fied’ the original sentence from 刘轩. Gogogo.

Home 14 March 2010

Went back to home this weekend because long time I did not go back home already. The journey is long and tough, haha, why tough? Because I am sick with the public transport in SP, the bus station that had ‘registered’ under UNESCO, raining even make the condition more worse that cannot be imagine. That is hardly for us to survive in SP if without your own transport, at least I have a motorbike :) lucky

 Recently I had busy with my FYP and project with Motorola, and both of that need to due in end of this month. Next month onward will be start my exam week and it expected to be a honey month because I only have one subject in the final exam, hopefully… and that is the end of my study life for this moment, or consider as a break for me before I continue to move further. +

Next month I must more aggressive in job finding and hope can hear the news of the company to call me for interview. So far still haven’t receive any reply from them, almost 20 companies that I applied, not even get one that call me for interview, sigh, that is not easy, it is tough but must. Next month in the mid of the month have one career fair that will be held in Mid Valley for 3 days, I hope that I can have chance to attend and the problem now seems is I need to solve my accommodation issue for these 3 days. Tomorrow should be another boring day in Motorola… huhuh… bye2
 

Trigger 10 March 2010

You trigger my eager, again, 

A simple greeting will make me jump like a kitten that delighted with his cotton ball;

How are you?

Recover from sick already?

How was your study?

I had brought something for you, it very cute, I guess you will like it;

Just a few simple greetings will trigger the thing from the deepest of my heart… yes, I am, yes thank you, and yes, welcome back… good night, huggy

I am not a bad boy 8 March 2010

I have 1 week “vacation”, this is the week that I can stay quietly alone, this maybe is a good chance for me to calm down and think properly about what should I do for the next. Maybe sometimes I make the thing becomes too sticky, but I didn’t realize it. I didn’t intend to do that, but seems it doesn’t is a good way, because I will feel tired and you will too. I will redefine the level of understanding and consideration that had been set in my mind previously. When it is quiet, it is the time for our mind to have “vacation”, and adjustment can be made, pardon me and allow yourself to read my mind. super cute ^^ 

Actually, I feel very lonely. I thought that I will very miss you in this week, but seems the feel of lonely take over the feel of “miss”. I feel very lonely, nobody can understand me, except you. I need more your caring. When I making decision, I want to share; when I am happy, I want to share; thousand tons of words that I want to vomit out from my stomach, and only you can digest it, because you are the only one have the gastric acid to digest it. Remember, I am not the problem creator, I just need your attention, I am “happy” maker. 

I change my mind very fast, now start to shift from lonely to miss. I am not a bad boy, I just need your attention. Maybe someday after I reset my setting from active becomes passive, then you will miss my bising, keep on disturbing and kacau… Take care. Huggy buggy, good night as usual to everyone. Sweet dream, haha, sayang you la...